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hello everyone I'm Martin Willis from

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your host and this is the everything

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else show where I talk about topics that

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I have an interest in tonight is going

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to be rather different though tonight

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I've had a few listeners suggest Brock

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thank you as one of them who does a lot

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of work on the Facebook page suggested I

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do this show about what it was like to

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go through you know life-saving surgery

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and I was contacted while I was in the

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hospital right after I had my surgery by

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my good friend Mark d'antonio who went

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through quite an ordeal years ago uh

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really serious he was going to be

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talking about that tonight and also was

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saved and he's here right now and uh

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Mark how are you I'm okay how are you

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Martin great glad you could make it I'm

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glad we're both here glad we can both

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make it yeah yeah I mean it's really uh

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I I've said this before if it wasn't if

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this

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what happened to either one of us

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happened you know a few decades ago

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neither one of us would be here no not

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at all in fact

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um you know it's not the first surgery

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I've had I mean I had one yeah gosh uh

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when I was nine I had one when I was 33

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and I had another one when I was 55.

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so it's not pretty you know it's not

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pretty but but it keeps us going it

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doesn't work yeah yeah yeah so what I

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thought we'd do is uh I'd like to talk

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about the adventure on the way there uh

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first of all and uh I'll I'll talk I'll

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talk about myself and what I went

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through and then I'd like for you to

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share what you went through now you've

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had this surgery so many times

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um so I don't know which one you'd want

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to pick is the time you know leading up

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to the surgery or maybe it doesn't even

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work in this type of situation but yeah

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I think that in my case I think that the

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most recent one probably says it all

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yeah oh yeah so we'll do that one yes

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well you know I I gotta tell you I

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remember when that was going on and I

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kept emailing you and I didn't hear back

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from you which was very unusual you know

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you usually respond right away and uh

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then uh then I heard about it through

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Alejandra Rojas that you had this major

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surgery all the Mark is gone I don't

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know what happened to Mark so I'll just

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wait I'll wait for him to come back but

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meanwhile I'll just I'll just uh you

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know this is a a time where I'm going to

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be uh kind of burying my soul here and

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you know things that happened and and uh

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you know what it was like to go through

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this whole situation I wouldn't want to

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wish it on my enemy Mark is back

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here he is I don't know what happened

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but you're back that's all that counts

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well I'm glad I'm glad you're here so uh

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starting with myself now uh I realized I

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never realized how much denial

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that I really had but I had some serious

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denial and I'll start back and I think

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it was around the 20th of August this

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year I was down on the cape with my

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friend and uh I was down there and

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um I started getting chest pain

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and then my left arm hurt and I always

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heard that you know that's a sign of a

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heart attack

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so but the strange thing is this is this

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is uh part I don't like to admit but um

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I thought it was indigestion and uh

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because and this is the part I hate to

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say because if I burped they already

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said it

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um it would go away

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so it and it happened like repeatedly

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but one day I started thinking about it

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it happened about like three or four

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times and one day

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I was thinking about it and talking to

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my friend Don and I said

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I think I really should go my son was

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visiting

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um you know but I said I think I really

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should go to the hospital and just get

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that checked out

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so I went into the Cape Cod hospital and

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when you there was a big long line in

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the emergency room and as soon as I said

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um chest pain they pushed me right up

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into the front

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and uh did an EKG on me immediately

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didn't see anything and I have this

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really very low heartbeat

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um this is uh see it's right there 46 uh

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per minute I've always had that very low

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as a matter of fact I set off a lot of

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alarms

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um when I was in the hospital because my

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heartbeat is so low and usually uh

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sometimes it's because of an athlete

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which I'm not or it's just genetics so

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anyway and I never thought I'd have any

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trouble with my heart at all you know I

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mean just I just thought you know I I

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don't know so I was in total denial so

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they did every type of test you could do

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an MRI all these different types of

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tests and then they said we really can't

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find anything I would you know maybe it

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is indigestion you know but you probably

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should we probably should admit you this

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was about like three or four in the

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morning probably should admit you and do

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a stress test

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so I said Nam it's probably just

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interjection uh I'm gonna go and they

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they fought me on and I had to sign a

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paper and if I only had listened you

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know that was my my mistake so

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um so time goes by and it kind of comes

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and goes and I'm feeling okay and

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um and then in in the meantime

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I uh I have an estate sale and I'm

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lifting Furniture like here's I put this

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in the back of my car it's Oak and I

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carried it up some stairs and I have

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this big estate sale and I'm carrying

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furniture

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and uh uh you know I had all I was just

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really pushing it and you know working

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up a sweat and all this said no chest

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pain nothing but a couple days later I

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went um up to

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um Rangely Lake in Maine and all of a

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sudden I had a lot of trouble

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so as time went on I I went into the

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emergency room again up here where I

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live in Rockland Maine and I went in the

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emergency room and they kept me all

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night and they couldn't find a single

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thing

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so they they sent me home and they said

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well let's let's get a stress test so I

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kept having this pain and it was going

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into my jaw and my arm

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and as well so I went to my doctor and I

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told him you know what was happening and

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I said I really think it's you know a

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gastric situation and meanwhile I have

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Omeprazole I have uh

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Pepto-Bismol you name it everything you

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could possibly think of trying to cure

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my heart situation so I

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I went to my doctor and I'm talking to

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him and I describe everything to him and

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he said well you know the Pain's

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radiating to your jaw it's waiting

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radiating to your left arm he said nine

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times out of ten it's hard so let me get

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this stress test you know it was already

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booked but it was like two or three

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weeks out he said let me book this

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stress test and put like a priority on

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it so you're getting quicker and I said

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okay and he says in the meantime I want

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you to go to the pharmacy and pick up

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some Nitro and the next time you have

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that chest pain take one of those and if

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it goes away you can pretty much say

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that you know you have an issue

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um I was doing an appraisal up in Maine

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uh two days later

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and all of a sudden I had this uh right

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in the middle of the appraisal I had

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this chest pain when I was reaching up

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for something and so I went out to the

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car excused myself went out to the car

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and took a Nitro and it went away

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instantly that's when I realized you

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know I'm I may have a problem

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so you have a problem yeah so you may

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have a problem right right so the stress

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test is scheduled for the Friday and

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this is like that was Saturday it's

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scheduled for the next Friday

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so I go through that weekend and it was

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either Monday or two it was it was uh

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went no it was Monday night it was

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um and right here behind me I was

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standing right there behind me

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and uh I was getting a camera ready for

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I was gonna do uh Randall nickerson's

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um his Premiere at the theater uh a

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round table I had all that planned and I

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had shag Harbor planned another uh

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conference so I was all set to do that

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and I was working on the camera not

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doing anything strenuous and all of a

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sudden it came on seriously uh where I

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called my friend Donna and I said I

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don't know if I'm going to make it so

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she said hang up and call 9-1-1 and I

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said well I was being a little bit

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stubborn I said well I took a Nitro

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and uh I'm going to drive because it's

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going to take the ambulance forever to

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get here and it's only 15 minutes away

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I'll drive so she stayed with me on the

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phone the whole time there and she would

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yeah and I made it I I made it there and

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so they kept me overnight uh they

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the emergency room doctor said look this

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is the third time you're in an emergency

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room we're keeping you overnight and uh

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and uh probably admitting you so they

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kept me overnight

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and uh it was a terrible you know the

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emergency room mattresses are like rock

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you know so it was really no sleep at

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all and very cold for some reason and so

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uh they had me scheduled for the uh for

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Friday so I had basically I was admitted

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um into the hospital until I had the

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stress test and they ran every other

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single type of test you could possibly

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imagine even ran the die through me and

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everything and so I finally get to the

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stress test on Friday morning and the

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cardiologist is reading through all of

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my reports and everything

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and then I heard him say and there was a

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curtain between us and I don't think he

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knew that I was either there or could

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hear him and he said well we're going to

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be sending this one home there's nothing

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here

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so he he gets me on the stress test

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and uh I I go I said yeah I can go run

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whatever you want me to do so I'm

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getting up to my heartbeats at 140 and

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all of a sudden I feel like a crushing

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in my chest and my throat is hurting of

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all things and uh he screams holy you

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know what

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stop and he stops the treadmill and I

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was supposed to do another dye test and

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he says you don't need any more tests uh

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you have a blockage and it's bad

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so uh you are going to Portland Maine

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Maine Medical and you're going to have a

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heart calf catheterization of the heart

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talk and just I'm getting right close to

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you know the when it all happened but so

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anyway I'm nervous about that and I talk

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to people like uh oh you know they go in

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through your artery in your arm or your

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leg and they go up and with dye and they

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go up and they film everything and see

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what's going on up there and then if

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they can they're going to put a stint in

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and that's what they said they'll most

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likely do is put a stent in and I'll be

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all set and it's not even painful or

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anything so I was still nervous about it

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but I went in and they said you may not

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even remember anything

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and uh but you're going to be conscious

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so I said okay

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so they put me on the table

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they give me this whatever it was

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and uh I am just like floating you know

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I was like oh like that and so then all

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of a sudden I'm being put back on the

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table and I said wait a minute when are

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you gonna do the procedure and they said

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we already did and uh I had missing time

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and they uh they said uh I'm afraid

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you're gonna have to have open heart

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surgery

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so and uh it was explained I had this

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great doctor he came in and explained

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everything to me and basically what I

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had was called the Widowmaker

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and uh other people when I told them

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what it was it's the lad the left

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anterior descending artery was 95

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blocked and what usually happens is you

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know people can just drop and die right

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there by having this so

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I met the doctor the uh that was going

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to do the surgery he was a great guy

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really big guy and I you know you come

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to find out they Stitch these little

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threads that are like the thickness of

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your hair uh when they're grafting your

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artery and this guy had these huge hands

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you know and I'm thinking how could he

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hold that needle and you know but he was

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great I had full confidence in him and

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then um so I scheduled for that open

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heart surgery

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and uh and while I was scheduled it was

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it was uh that was I think uh Tuesday

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and meanwhile like you know I got Dean

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involved in doing my other show and all

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that and I uh were this waiting for the

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surgery and I'd have these problems of

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the angina really bad where it was it

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and and I just you know would hope it

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would pass and I get the Nitro and all

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that then I was scheduled for

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uh Friday morning first thing at five

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a.m and the doctor said Friday night he

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was going to a concert and uh so I'm

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thinking oh God I hope it's not delayed

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or anything because he'll be uh coming

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back from a concert if he does it on

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Saturday so sure enough they didn't have

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enough ICU uh units so I had to be

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delayed one day and he basically came in

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on his day off but uh so that day that

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just before

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um I had such a serious

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um I thought it was a heart attack I

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wasn't I was told that there was no

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damage to the heart thank God but

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it was the most scary and painful thing

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it was like an anvil on my chest

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and it scared the hell out of me and all

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I kept thinking was I was supposed to

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have surgery that morning and I wasn't

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going to make it uh and needless to say

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I did I made it and uh I'll talk about

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the surgery later and Mark it's your

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turn so what led you up to

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your last time in the hospital well

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first of all what was your condition to

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begin with

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uh I Had A congenital defect in one of

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my heart valves and when I was nine they

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did What's called the valvolotomy they

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were able to widen the aortic valve I

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mean that's the main valve in the heart

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I mean they're all important but the

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aortic valve is very important you know

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and by widening it they they gave me

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some years okay

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um but uh I was the kid in school who

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could not take Jim because of the heart

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I couldn't run track because of her I

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couldn't play football because I was

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always because of the heart because of

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the heart all my life

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so when I was 34 finally uh I had

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another procedure where they had to

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replace the aortic valve with an

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artificial valve that's what they said

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and I said I'm not going to do that this

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was a Yale and I told the Yale doctor I

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am not going to put an artificial valve

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in me okay and uh he said well that's

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what we do here in a very arrogant tone

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and I said and I literally looked at him

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without batting an eyelash I said well

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that's not what you're going to do to me

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and I I fired him as my doctor and I

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went to another doctor and a good thing

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I did because

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um you know at that time my father had

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had the same problem and he had surgery

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and at Hartford Hospital

389
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but after the surgery they accidentally

390
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infected his artificial valve they put

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in and it killed them

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um

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and so a year to the day later

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literally I had to have the same surgery

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oh so they arranged for me to have the

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surgery with the surgeon that taught all

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of them how to do the proper procedure

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and they actually got flown out the

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Oklahoma City I met with this surgeon

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and great guy I mean they're all Cowboys

401
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out there that was my impression in fact

402
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one of the surgeons had a cowboy hat on

403
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you know and I was like oh that's cool

404
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he goes yeah it makes help us help us

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think and he put on country music and

406
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they're going to town it's like okay

407
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well after that I came back and um

408
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that was good until I was 55 but the

409
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reason it would didn't go longer

410
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is because I ended up getting an

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infection

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now

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the

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problem is

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you have a lot of bacteria in your body

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at all times some of it can get into the

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bloodstream and there's many avenues

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that can go it can go in through the

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eyes it can go into the mouth it can it

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can get into your bloodstream in a

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variety of ways through a cut

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um we'll never know for sure I think it

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was because of a dental procedure

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but I ended up getting uh an infection

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on one of my heart valves the pulmonary

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valve the pulmonic valve

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and uh

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it was strep it wasn't a staph infection

429
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it was strep bacteria and that says it

430
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came from the mouth so most likely it

431
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was a dental procedure that caused it

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and uh I still had I had taken the uh

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appropriate pre-medication and it's it's

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literally

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um

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it literally basically didn't do

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anything in this particular case so I

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ended up with infections on that valve

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and in my aortic valve

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so uh I had two valve infections so they

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had to give me an IV line which I had to

442
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you know use and every day I had to give

443
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myself an injection of IV antibiotics

444
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through this tube that was permanently

445
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attached to my body for a period of time

446
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six weeks

447
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and uh it was an extremely powerful

448
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antibiotic and it managed to kill the

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infection

450
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but there was a hole in the pulmonary

451
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valve okay and this hole in the

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pulmonary valve ended up eating away at

453
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the pulmonary valve causing a hole in

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the side wall of the heart

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and that was getting bigger and bigger

456
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and bigger and for those out there that

457
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understand these things the my PR

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interval was actually growing which

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means that the electrical signals coming

460
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from the heart for that valve were

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getting longer for this one particular

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part of the beat

463
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and that was dangerous mine was over 200

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and

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stop functioning

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so they said looks like we're going to

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have to do surgery

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and I was like well I'm in Connecticut

469
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who's who can do the surgery

470
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that's a very specialized repair there's

471
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only one guy

472
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one surgeon that can do this

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really yeah who's that

474
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it's just so happy and she's at Mount

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Sinai in New York City I said he's two

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hours away that's right that's why we're

477
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pulling the ambulance around for you

478
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right now and you're going to get in and

479
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you're going to Mount Sinai in New York

480
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City right now

481
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okay hey another fun adventure yeah what

482
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choice do you have there is no chance

483
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yeah so I got there and I met with him

484
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and I said to him you know we talked for

485
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quite a while actually his name was Paul

486
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Stelzer

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um a stellar human being

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um as we we always talk about the

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surgeons that Save Our Lives as being

490
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Stellar but this man in particular

491
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was pretty amazing I did some research

492
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on the guy started looking him up and

493
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seeing how he was uh really had a how to

494
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give a sense of humor he was really a

495
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great guy he still is and uh

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so Dr Seltzer said to me

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um

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we normally would wait a few days but

499
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you don't have a few days

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I I said to him I go I understand that

501
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you know I said listen I'm an astronomer

502
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I'm a science guy you're a

503
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cardiothoracic surgeon

504
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speak openly and honest with me you

505
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don't have to candy coat anything with

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me that's a deal and I sure cans with

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him he says yes deal okay

508
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so that's when I went into the surgery

509
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and um actually the following morning at

510
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5am

511
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I remember the pre-op board it looked

512
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like

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he wakes up uh you know Lincoln uh the

514
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uh the actor he wakes up he looks around

515
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and nobody's around everybody's gone

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you know there was nobody

517
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there was one light on and it was over

518
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my bed there was nobody else in this

519
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pre-op Ward

520
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and then he the doctor came out and he

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he yells across the room hey Mark we're

522
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almost ready for you okay no problem Dr

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Selzer I'm right here I'm not going

524
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anywhere

525
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and uh that's the last I remember of my

526
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my reality before all this

527
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um and I didn't remember going in I'm

528
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sure I did I'm sure I had a conversation

529
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because I was awake

530
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um but

531
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um the anesthesia has a way of removing

532
00:23:02,270 --> 00:23:00,000
your memory

533
00:23:04,789 --> 00:23:02,280
now it's still locked in there and

534
00:23:06,350 --> 00:23:04,799
there's probably ways to get it out so I

535
00:23:08,930 --> 00:23:06,360
can remember them probably playing catch

536
00:23:10,490 --> 00:23:08,940
with my heart or something I don't know

537
00:23:12,470 --> 00:23:10,500
but uh

538
00:23:16,930 --> 00:23:12,480
bottom line was um

539
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uh he did the surgery and for me it was

540
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obviously I don't remember being put

541
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under

542
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but I remember that uh when I woke up

543
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I realized I wasn't awake

544
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you know so that that's and that's part

545
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two of this right I mean so

546
00:23:36,470 --> 00:23:34,980
um the need was to fix the hole that had

547
00:23:37,970 --> 00:23:36,480
occurred and to do that they had to

548
00:23:40,730 --> 00:23:37,980
replace both valves

549
00:23:41,870 --> 00:23:40,740
so I got human vowels and I had human

550
00:23:45,230 --> 00:23:41,880
vowels before

551
00:23:49,310 --> 00:23:45,240
so I have two more human valves now

552
00:23:52,549 --> 00:23:49,320
wow um so that's that's that's the you

553
00:23:55,250 --> 00:23:52,559
know why it happened for me wow and I I

554
00:23:56,270 --> 00:23:55,260
know the the rest of your story gets

555
00:24:00,409 --> 00:23:56,280
pretty

556
00:24:02,230 --> 00:24:00,419
yeah yeah you have a heck of a story too

557
00:24:05,630 --> 00:24:02,240
yeah

558
00:24:07,970 --> 00:24:05,640
but uh yours is something well uh you

559
00:24:09,590 --> 00:24:07,980
know mine is it's funny they call it uh

560
00:24:14,029 --> 00:24:09,600
cabbage

561
00:24:15,649 --> 00:24:14,039
um it's it's a coronary arterial

562
00:24:21,950 --> 00:24:15,659
uh

563
00:24:24,950 --> 00:24:21,960
nickname is called cabbage so you know

564
00:24:29,930 --> 00:24:24,960
like cabbage head and they uh they have

565
00:24:32,330 --> 00:24:29,940
these uh these online support groups and

566
00:24:36,230 --> 00:24:32,340
um so I'm going to talk about because a

567
00:24:37,669 --> 00:24:36,240
lot of weird things happen as well

568
00:24:39,110 --> 00:24:37,679
um but so

569
00:24:43,130 --> 00:24:39,120
um waiting

570
00:24:44,690 --> 00:24:43,140
for this the surgery and

571
00:24:47,029 --> 00:24:44,700
um I just want to I want to read

572
00:24:50,390 --> 00:24:47,039
something I can't really remember if

573
00:24:52,610 --> 00:24:50,400
this was before or after the surgery but

574
00:24:55,909 --> 00:24:52,620
um as you know Mark they really don't

575
00:24:59,570 --> 00:24:55,919
let you sleep in the hospital

576
00:25:01,310 --> 00:24:59,580
so what I did is uh I I it was like

577
00:25:04,430 --> 00:25:01,320
night after night

578
00:25:06,950 --> 00:25:04,440
of no sleep so I decided one night I'm

579
00:25:10,010 --> 00:25:06,960
gonna document this and and that's what

580
00:25:14,149 --> 00:25:10,020
I did so I have a printout right here of

581
00:25:17,090 --> 00:25:14,159
my actual uh text my text myself

582
00:25:20,810 --> 00:25:17,100
um every every uh every time I woke up

583
00:25:22,090 --> 00:25:20,820
so just to keep track of everything so

584
00:25:27,049 --> 00:25:22,100
um

585
00:25:29,330 --> 00:25:27,059
10 20 p.m I went to bed now I had a room

586
00:25:31,789 --> 00:25:29,340
and I had several roommates my last

587
00:25:33,590 --> 00:25:31,799
roommate was really great we're still in

588
00:25:37,190 --> 00:25:33,600
touch she's actually watching the show

589
00:25:39,649 --> 00:25:37,200
this evening uh but and how you doing

590
00:25:42,529 --> 00:25:39,659
Rick but um

591
00:25:45,049 --> 00:25:42,539
I had some real real characters the

592
00:25:46,730 --> 00:25:45,059
first roommate I had

593
00:25:49,789 --> 00:25:46,740
um was

594
00:25:52,909 --> 00:25:49,799
he had some major problems and he was

595
00:25:54,590 --> 00:25:52,919
kept pulling out his IV and he kept uh

596
00:25:57,409 --> 00:25:54,600
singing and laughing he wouldn't stop

597
00:26:01,490 --> 00:25:57,419
laughing and this was my first

598
00:26:04,430 --> 00:26:01,500
introduction to Maine Medical and my my

599
00:26:07,850 --> 00:26:04,440
roommate so I had to get the hell out of

600
00:26:10,430 --> 00:26:07,860
there so I called my friend who was a

601
00:26:14,029 --> 00:26:10,440
social worker I said how do I get out of

602
00:26:16,490 --> 00:26:14,039
this room with this crazy person and

603
00:26:19,730 --> 00:26:16,500
they said say that you feel anxious

604
00:26:22,789 --> 00:26:19,740
and I did and boom they moved me out and

605
00:26:25,430 --> 00:26:22,799
uh that's I didn't never get that option

606
00:26:27,590 --> 00:26:25,440
well so I had these different roommates

607
00:26:30,409 --> 00:26:27,600
and they were except for my last one

608
00:26:33,230 --> 00:26:30,419
they were all very memorable

609
00:26:34,669 --> 00:26:33,240
um not in a good way so my last one I

610
00:26:37,970 --> 00:26:34,679
mean this one in particular I'm talking

611
00:26:41,090 --> 00:26:37,980
about he was absolutely deaf and he

612
00:26:43,190 --> 00:26:41,100
refused to wear hearing aids he was from

613
00:26:45,470 --> 00:26:43,200
the northern tip of Maine right on the

614
00:26:49,010 --> 00:26:45,480
border of Canada and was down there for

615
00:26:53,450 --> 00:26:49,020
for a heart issue and uh so

616
00:26:54,529 --> 00:26:53,460
I went to bed at 10 20 and 11 30 The

617
00:26:56,269 --> 00:26:54,539
Roommate

618
00:26:57,350 --> 00:26:56,279
next to me

619
00:27:01,669 --> 00:26:57,360
um

620
00:27:03,350 --> 00:27:01,679
he would beat you know for the nurses he

621
00:27:05,630 --> 00:27:03,360
would you know the call button he'd push

622
00:27:08,269 --> 00:27:05,640
the call button and they'd answer they

623
00:27:09,890 --> 00:27:08,279
go hi may I help you

624
00:27:12,049 --> 00:27:09,900
and there was dead silence because he

625
00:27:15,169 --> 00:27:12,059
couldn't hear them yeah so he'd pushed

626
00:27:17,990 --> 00:27:15,179
the button again hi may I help you

627
00:27:20,750 --> 00:27:18,000
so finally I piped up and said

628
00:27:23,690 --> 00:27:20,760
um can you come in here he must need

629
00:27:25,909 --> 00:27:23,700
something so they would they would come

630
00:27:27,529 --> 00:27:25,919
in and you know he'd have to get a big

631
00:27:28,970 --> 00:27:27,539
production to get up to use the restroom

632
00:27:33,049 --> 00:27:28,980
whatever you know

633
00:27:35,750 --> 00:27:33,059
so uh 130 the

634
00:27:37,430 --> 00:27:35,760
his bed alarm went off so he obviously

635
00:27:40,010 --> 00:27:37,440
got out of his bed they had to have an

636
00:27:42,649 --> 00:27:40,020
alarm on it you know to make sure he

637
00:27:44,210 --> 00:27:42,659
didn't get out so that was 1 30 a.m so I

638
00:27:46,070 --> 00:27:44,220
got a little bit of sleep between 11 30

639
00:27:49,070 --> 00:27:46,080
and 1 30.

640
00:27:52,070 --> 00:27:49,080
2 A.M they came in to take my vitals

641
00:27:54,549 --> 00:27:52,080
uh 2 30 they came in to change the

642
00:27:58,970 --> 00:27:54,559
battery in my heart monitor

643
00:28:01,149 --> 00:27:58,980
320 the IV machine started beeping they

644
00:28:04,130 --> 00:28:01,159
came and fixed it

645
00:28:06,529 --> 00:28:04,140
450 for some reason they felt that was

646
00:28:09,250 --> 00:28:06,539
the time to come in and weigh me so I

647
00:28:13,010 --> 00:28:09,260
had to get up out of bed and get weight

648
00:28:14,330 --> 00:28:13,020
uh 510 they put the roommate on the

649
00:28:18,409 --> 00:28:14,340
toilet again

650
00:28:20,630 --> 00:28:18,419
and uh he was yelling a lot and uh so 5

651
00:28:22,909 --> 00:28:20,640
30 they decided to give me Omeprazole

652
00:28:25,070 --> 00:28:22,919
which I never really needed that was for

653
00:28:27,649 --> 00:28:25,080
gastric issues

654
00:28:28,870 --> 00:28:27,659
um 605 it was the first announcement on

655
00:28:31,990 --> 00:28:28,880
the PA

656
00:28:36,289 --> 00:28:32,000
626 was vitals

657
00:28:37,970 --> 00:28:36,299
640 the old roommate was hauled away for

658
00:28:40,190 --> 00:28:37,980
an operation

659
00:28:41,570 --> 00:28:40,200
they left the door wide open everyone's

660
00:28:43,549 --> 00:28:41,580
yelling and walking by right by the

661
00:28:46,010 --> 00:28:43,559
nurse's station so I got up to have to

662
00:28:47,750 --> 00:28:46,020
close the door seven o'clock nurse

663
00:28:50,210 --> 00:28:47,760
shift change they come in and introduce

664
00:28:54,769 --> 00:28:50,220
themselves and all that I'm like please

665
00:28:56,450 --> 00:28:54,779
just let me sleep that was 703 710 I had

666
00:28:57,590 --> 00:28:56,460
to get up and close the door after the

667
00:29:00,230 --> 00:28:57,600
new nurse

668
00:29:03,169 --> 00:29:00,240
uh even though I asked her if she'd

669
00:29:06,049 --> 00:29:03,179
please close the door 7 20 they came in

670
00:29:09,769 --> 00:29:06,059
to draw blood a couple of pokes they got

671
00:29:13,669 --> 00:29:09,779
that 732 the nurse student came in

672
00:29:15,049 --> 00:29:13,679
and uh she was very very ambitious and

673
00:29:16,610 --> 00:29:15,059
kept coming in

674
00:29:19,130 --> 00:29:16,620
um so that was it that was like a

675
00:29:21,230 --> 00:29:19,140
typical night it was like I don't even

676
00:29:23,630 --> 00:29:21,240
think you could get an hour of sleep you

677
00:29:28,070 --> 00:29:23,640
know an hour hour and a half sleep so

678
00:29:30,590 --> 00:29:28,080
yeah so uh so going up to the uh I think

679
00:29:34,310 --> 00:29:30,600
I'll bring us up here going up to the uh

680
00:29:37,330 --> 00:29:34,320
surgery so uh that's where I I kind of

681
00:29:40,909 --> 00:29:37,340
left off so I I'm going into the surgery

682
00:29:43,430 --> 00:29:40,919
and I just say well I have no choice you

683
00:29:44,810 --> 00:29:43,440
know this is It's either this or or I'm

684
00:29:48,950 --> 00:29:44,820
gonna have this terrible chest pain and

685
00:29:50,930 --> 00:29:48,960
die so I just what you put your trust

686
00:29:53,090 --> 00:29:50,940
totally into this

687
00:29:54,889 --> 00:29:53,100
this Hospital the surgeon all the

688
00:29:56,570 --> 00:29:54,899
medical people you just put your you

689
00:29:59,690 --> 00:29:56,580
have no other choice you have to put all

690
00:30:02,870 --> 00:29:59,700
your trust in them that's right so I

691
00:30:05,210 --> 00:30:02,880
went I went under I I had met one more

692
00:30:08,210 --> 00:30:05,220
time with the doctor and I felt very

693
00:30:12,350 --> 00:30:08,220
comfortable with them and

694
00:30:13,850 --> 00:30:12,360
so I went under and the next thing

695
00:30:14,450 --> 00:30:13,860
you know

696
00:30:16,130 --> 00:30:14,460
um

697
00:30:19,010 --> 00:30:16,140
coming too

698
00:30:21,529 --> 00:30:19,020
and uh you know burning burning chests

699
00:30:23,269 --> 00:30:21,539
of of course

700
00:30:24,710 --> 00:30:23,279
um and

701
00:30:27,950 --> 00:30:24,720
then

702
00:30:30,230 --> 00:30:27,960
um like in such a hallucinative state I

703
00:30:33,409 --> 00:30:30,240
can't I don't even know how to describe

704
00:30:35,389 --> 00:30:33,419
things and uh I'm on the ventilator and

705
00:30:37,850 --> 00:30:35,399
they have uh two of them in my stomach

706
00:30:39,830 --> 00:30:37,860
and a ventilator now the ventilator I

707
00:30:41,210 --> 00:30:39,840
feel so sorry for these people that had

708
00:30:44,810 --> 00:30:41,220
covered that had to be on the sink

709
00:30:47,389 --> 00:30:44,820
because it just it goes

710
00:30:49,430 --> 00:30:47,399
just pushes the air in you and it forces

711
00:30:50,870 --> 00:30:49,440
you to breathe in and breathe out so I'm

712
00:30:53,149 --> 00:30:50,880
trying to

713
00:30:54,649 --> 00:30:53,159
get a hold of the tube and I realize

714
00:30:56,029 --> 00:30:54,659
that I'm strapped down they strap you

715
00:30:57,649 --> 00:30:56,039
down so you can't pull the tube out

716
00:31:00,409 --> 00:30:57,659
because I guess a lot of people want to

717
00:31:02,389 --> 00:31:00,419
do that so I'm trying to do anything I

718
00:31:04,130 --> 00:31:02,399
can to get the attention of someone I'm

719
00:31:05,990 --> 00:31:04,140
winking my eyes and when they walk by

720
00:31:08,510 --> 00:31:06,000
and stuff like get the tube the hell out

721
00:31:11,649 --> 00:31:08,520
of me it's awful I couldn't stand the

722
00:31:14,690 --> 00:31:11,659
ventilator then I started having these

723
00:31:17,149 --> 00:31:14,700
hallucinations and I know this is where

724
00:31:19,430 --> 00:31:17,159
you're going to talk about the things

725
00:31:22,070 --> 00:31:19,440
that happened to you too so I had these

726
00:31:24,230 --> 00:31:22,080
hallucinations and uh one is so wild

727
00:31:27,889 --> 00:31:24,240
it's it's like for me to admit it

728
00:31:31,070 --> 00:31:27,899
publicly it's uh it's it doesn't make

729
00:31:33,350 --> 00:31:31,080
any sense uh I

730
00:31:34,370 --> 00:31:33,360
I grew up my father had an upholstery

731
00:31:39,470 --> 00:31:34,380
shop

732
00:31:41,870 --> 00:31:39,480
were several boats of bolts of fabric on

733
00:31:43,370 --> 00:31:41,880
end they're like rolls of fabric on and

734
00:31:47,630 --> 00:31:43,380
in these boxes

735
00:31:50,029 --> 00:31:47,640
well I'm like floating over and I see

736
00:31:52,370 --> 00:31:50,039
these boxes and then I'm going over to

737
00:31:54,529 --> 00:31:52,380
the box and all of a sudden I realize

738
00:31:56,870 --> 00:31:54,539
that I'm here's here's where it's

739
00:31:57,950 --> 00:31:56,880
absolutely nuts I'm one of the bolts of

740
00:32:00,289 --> 00:31:57,960
fabric

741
00:32:02,810 --> 00:32:00,299
I became or I was one of the bolts of

742
00:32:05,210 --> 00:32:02,820
fabric in the box that was one of my

743
00:32:08,149 --> 00:32:05,220
hallucinations it makes absolutely no

744
00:32:10,789 --> 00:32:08,159
sense and that's why I was hesitant to

745
00:32:13,130 --> 00:32:10,799
talk about it but I did anyway and this

746
00:32:15,110 --> 00:32:13,140
the other hallucinations are weird

747
00:32:16,789 --> 00:32:15,120
dreams I guess you have and I've had a

748
00:32:18,830 --> 00:32:16,799
ton of those since this but the other

749
00:32:20,230 --> 00:32:18,840
things that I had while I was in

750
00:32:24,169 --> 00:32:20,240
recovery

751
00:32:25,909 --> 00:32:24,179
uh was that I would be I was in a house

752
00:32:27,830 --> 00:32:25,919
where I grew up in yet I was in a little

753
00:32:29,570 --> 00:32:27,840
tiny box where I couldn't move out of

754
00:32:32,149 --> 00:32:29,580
and I kept having those type of things

755
00:32:34,310 --> 00:32:32,159
because I was restrained basically I

756
00:32:37,570 --> 00:32:34,320
think that's why I was having those and

757
00:32:41,149 --> 00:32:37,580
then finally they came and pulled out

758
00:32:42,889 --> 00:32:41,159
the ventilator tube and the stomach tube

759
00:32:46,010 --> 00:32:42,899
and that's something you never really

760
00:32:48,110 --> 00:32:46,020
want to feel either and once they did

761
00:32:50,450 --> 00:32:48,120
that they sat me up and next thing you

762
00:32:51,590 --> 00:32:50,460
know my friend Donna's sitting right

763
00:32:54,889 --> 00:32:51,600
next to me

764
00:32:57,350 --> 00:32:54,899
and she said I was like talking coherent

765
00:32:59,389 --> 00:32:57,360
but I I had no idea what I was saying

766
00:33:02,750 --> 00:32:59,399
she did tell me that I asked her several

767
00:33:04,549 --> 00:33:02,760
times am I saying bad things because I

768
00:33:06,230 --> 00:33:04,559
didn't know didn't know what I was

769
00:33:08,990 --> 00:33:06,240
saying and I guess I had a sense of

770
00:33:11,570 --> 00:33:09,000
humor too but in recovery it was really

771
00:33:14,990 --> 00:33:11,580
really bizarre I'm going to just talk a

772
00:33:17,269 --> 00:33:15,000
little bit about that the first the

773
00:33:20,090 --> 00:33:17,279
first night there um

774
00:33:23,690 --> 00:33:20,100
uh when they put me into like this bed

775
00:33:26,930 --> 00:33:23,700
from the chair I had I had tubes in my

776
00:33:28,850 --> 00:33:26,940
neck and my chest and and my stomach and

777
00:33:31,250 --> 00:33:28,860
I looked behind me and there were all

778
00:33:33,830 --> 00:33:31,260
these wires and cables and

779
00:33:36,049 --> 00:33:33,840
all these things I just couldn't believe

780
00:33:38,810 --> 00:33:36,059
how much was hooked to me they put me in

781
00:33:41,330 --> 00:33:38,820
this bed in the bed the bed moved

782
00:33:43,549 --> 00:33:41,340
constantly to I guess to stimulate you

783
00:33:45,169 --> 00:33:43,559
or something like that I couldn't sleep

784
00:33:47,630 --> 00:33:45,179
and uh

785
00:33:51,049 --> 00:33:47,640
it was it was quite awful and they had

786
00:33:55,130 --> 00:33:51,059
the charge nurse for that night

787
00:33:58,430 --> 00:33:55,140
um was Extremely Loud and laughing and

788
00:34:00,110 --> 00:33:58,440
so I kept asking I had a male nurse that

789
00:34:03,289 --> 00:34:00,120
night and he was good as gold he was

790
00:34:04,850 --> 00:34:03,299
such a great guy and I kept thinking and

791
00:34:08,329 --> 00:34:04,860
I would say this right from the get-go

792
00:34:11,210 --> 00:34:08,339
in recovery that I can't go to sleep

793
00:34:13,250 --> 00:34:11,220
because if I do I'm going to I'm going

794
00:34:14,990 --> 00:34:13,260
to die I'm going to stop breathing I had

795
00:34:17,210 --> 00:34:15,000
that so stuck in my mind that that was

796
00:34:18,589 --> 00:34:17,220
going to happen that I was afraid to go

797
00:34:19,490 --> 00:34:18,599
to sleep because I knew I'd stop

798
00:34:23,930 --> 00:34:19,500
breathing

799
00:34:25,669 --> 00:34:23,940
and so the uh the nurse kept assuring me

800
00:34:27,829 --> 00:34:25,679
and he said look I'll stay right here

801
00:34:29,930 --> 00:34:27,839
and I said it doesn't matter that woman

802
00:34:33,050 --> 00:34:29,940
just keeps laughing and yelling and you

803
00:34:35,030 --> 00:34:33,060
know so uh he would go out tell her to

804
00:34:37,849 --> 00:34:35,040
please you know be quiet and she would

805
00:34:40,250 --> 00:34:37,859
that would last for about an hour and

806
00:34:42,589 --> 00:34:40,260
should start up again so I never got a

807
00:34:44,750 --> 00:34:42,599
wink of sleep that night basically

808
00:34:46,990 --> 00:34:44,760
thinking that I was gonna die and then

809
00:34:49,909 --> 00:34:47,000
uh because I thought I'd stop breathing

810
00:34:53,869 --> 00:34:49,919
and then you know it's a slow slow

811
00:34:55,550 --> 00:34:53,879
recovery from there on out

812
00:34:57,770 --> 00:34:55,560
um you know I had some great people come

813
00:35:01,250 --> 00:34:57,780
visit me and and give me a lot of

814
00:35:03,190 --> 00:35:01,260
support and uh it's been really great

815
00:35:06,650 --> 00:35:03,200
I'll just go quickly into

816
00:35:07,970 --> 00:35:06,660
uh I became I think you know they say

817
00:35:11,089 --> 00:35:07,980
you go through a lot of different things

818
00:35:13,250 --> 00:35:11,099
and one of them is uh you know uh

819
00:35:14,569 --> 00:35:13,260
depression which I didn't really go

820
00:35:16,550 --> 00:35:14,579
through I'm really lucky that I didn't

821
00:35:19,550 --> 00:35:16,560
go through I feel nothing but grateful

822
00:35:21,950 --> 00:35:19,560
that I'm alive and but one thing I will

823
00:35:25,550 --> 00:35:21,960
tell you is uh I've never been more

824
00:35:28,550 --> 00:35:25,560
emotional in my life uh when I was let

825
00:35:29,990 --> 00:35:28,560
out of the hospital I just I looked at

826
00:35:34,490 --> 00:35:30,000
the beautiful day

827
00:35:37,910 --> 00:35:34,500
and I just and my son picked me up and

828
00:35:40,550 --> 00:35:37,920
uh and I got in the car and I just

829
00:35:42,349 --> 00:35:40,560
here's my son right here

830
00:35:45,470 --> 00:35:42,359
um he came and stayed with me that's

831
00:35:49,190 --> 00:35:45,480
Evan he came and stayed with me for

832
00:35:51,710 --> 00:35:49,200
um about a week after and uh

833
00:35:54,050 --> 00:35:51,720
like I said I was just so grateful to

834
00:35:57,410 --> 00:35:54,060
see the sunshine and to know that I made

835
00:36:00,470 --> 00:35:57,420
it I really made it and that I have the

836
00:36:04,069 --> 00:36:00,480
future in front of me and uh and this is

837
00:36:05,410 --> 00:36:04,079
what they did uh this is where it was

838
00:36:09,410 --> 00:36:05,420
blocked before

839
00:36:11,270 --> 00:36:09,420
right here on uh on the left side of

840
00:36:12,770 --> 00:36:11,280
your screen and then this is basically

841
00:36:15,530 --> 00:36:12,780
the graph they made

842
00:36:17,270 --> 00:36:15,540
and they used a an artery from inside

843
00:36:20,569 --> 00:36:17,280
the rib cage so I didn't even have to

844
00:36:25,250 --> 00:36:20,579
have any leg any grafts from my leg or

845
00:36:29,210 --> 00:36:25,260
anything that's cool yeah so uh anyway

846
00:36:31,370 --> 00:36:29,220
I am totally grateful I have been I've

847
00:36:33,349 --> 00:36:31,380
still a little bit emotional and I have

848
00:36:35,030 --> 00:36:33,359
I don't know if this happened too much

849
00:36:37,130 --> 00:36:35,040
but you know when they put you on the

850
00:36:40,310 --> 00:36:37,140
heart and lung machine

851
00:36:41,390 --> 00:36:40,320
they have this thing called uh pump

852
00:36:43,790 --> 00:36:41,400
brain

853
00:36:46,250 --> 00:36:43,800
and have you ever heard of that where

854
00:36:48,530 --> 00:36:46,260
you can't remember things and you you

855
00:36:51,109 --> 00:36:48,540
know you you space out for a while

856
00:36:54,349 --> 00:36:51,119
you know uh but they they do call it

857
00:36:56,450 --> 00:36:54,359
pump rain and um anyway I think I'm

858
00:36:58,670 --> 00:36:56,460
getting through that I had a Dean do my

859
00:37:03,349 --> 00:36:58,680
show for a while because I kept losing

860
00:37:05,990 --> 00:37:03,359
words and uh then anyway I remained

861
00:37:08,530 --> 00:37:06,000
absolutely grateful every single day the

862
00:37:11,690 --> 00:37:08,540
only thing I really don't like is I'm on

863
00:37:17,890 --> 00:37:11,700
metropolo polo I can't remember do you

864
00:37:23,750 --> 00:37:21,050
yeah but that has given me the craziest

865
00:37:26,390 --> 00:37:23,760
dreams I have never dreamed such weird

866
00:37:28,130 --> 00:37:26,400
dreams in my life you should be copying

867
00:37:29,990 --> 00:37:28,140
them down and writing them down oh yeah

868
00:37:31,970 --> 00:37:30,000
yeah some of them are just just crazy

869
00:37:34,130 --> 00:37:31,980
they're they're called trouble mares

870
00:37:35,630 --> 00:37:34,140
they're not nightmares but you just

871
00:37:37,010 --> 00:37:35,640
can't like you're trying to reach

872
00:37:39,650 --> 00:37:37,020
someone the phone doesn't have any

873
00:37:41,390 --> 00:37:39,660
numbers on it or you you try to get

874
00:37:43,730 --> 00:37:41,400
somewhere your boat is sinking I had

875
00:37:46,670 --> 00:37:43,740
that happen uh all these different

876
00:37:51,530 --> 00:37:46,680
things I had one where I had to um while

877
00:37:53,870 --> 00:37:51,540
on Metropolol I had to um solve a

878
00:37:55,609 --> 00:37:53,880
triangle I was inside this triangle and

879
00:37:58,370 --> 00:37:55,619
had to solve it mathematically with no

880
00:38:00,109 --> 00:37:58,380
information to solve it

881
00:38:02,329 --> 00:38:00,119
sounds like somebody had to be thrown

882
00:38:04,609 --> 00:38:02,339
your way it's maddening it says

883
00:38:07,370 --> 00:38:04,619
maddening but I I realized you know I'm

884
00:38:09,230 --> 00:38:07,380
a lucid dreamer so I can kind of Take

885
00:38:11,210 --> 00:38:09,240
Charge sometimes and control your dreams

886
00:38:13,630 --> 00:38:11,220
yeah a little bit yeah I've been doing

887
00:38:17,329 --> 00:38:13,640
it since I was a kid it's weird yeah

888
00:38:19,910 --> 00:38:17,339
yeah and so I ended up um just basically

889
00:38:21,770 --> 00:38:19,920
saying I don't like this triangle give

890
00:38:23,750 --> 00:38:21,780
me a right triangle I could fix that I

891
00:38:25,490 --> 00:38:23,760
can do that so I got a right triangle I

892
00:38:27,470 --> 00:38:25,500
did solve it and I got out I mean that

893
00:38:30,410 --> 00:38:27,480
you know what I mean that's weird yeah

894
00:38:32,390 --> 00:38:30,420
yeah yeah yeah I mean the dreams are

895
00:38:34,970 --> 00:38:32,400
just I mean like I don't even know need

896
00:38:38,450 --> 00:38:34,980
to watch TV I mean they're just so uh

897
00:38:41,329 --> 00:38:38,460
they're so bizarre and so vivid like

898
00:38:44,990 --> 00:38:41,339
I've never had before so what uh so

899
00:38:47,870 --> 00:38:45,000
let's hear I know you had uh quite you

900
00:38:50,150 --> 00:38:47,880
went through quite an ordeal so why

901
00:38:52,430 --> 00:38:50,160
don't you well let's talk about the rest

902
00:38:53,930 --> 00:38:52,440
of it yeah yeah it's not a big deal I

903
00:38:54,710 --> 00:38:53,940
say it's not a big deal

904
00:38:56,870 --> 00:38:54,720
um

905
00:38:58,970 --> 00:38:56,880
you have to understand

906
00:39:01,430 --> 00:38:58,980
I knew

907
00:39:02,630 --> 00:39:01,440
um when I was waking up after the

908
00:39:04,430 --> 00:39:02,640
surgery I knew I was going to be all

909
00:39:08,930 --> 00:39:04,440
right

910
00:39:10,670 --> 00:39:08,940
um and yet I knew that I was actually at

911
00:39:13,810 --> 00:39:10,680
that point

912
00:39:16,730 --> 00:39:13,820
um unable to move and profoundly blind

913
00:39:19,370 --> 00:39:16,740
and that was because during the surgery

914
00:39:21,950 --> 00:39:19,380
a clock got away from them

915
00:39:23,870 --> 00:39:21,960
uh from the pulmonary area went to the

916
00:39:24,530 --> 00:39:23,880
heart I'm sorry went to the brain blew

917
00:39:26,390 --> 00:39:24,540
up

918
00:39:29,450 --> 00:39:26,400
and gave me eight major Strokes on the

919
00:39:31,670 --> 00:39:29,460
operating table and no one knew it ah so

920
00:39:32,630 --> 00:39:31,680
when they went to wake me up Mark's not

921
00:39:34,670 --> 00:39:32,640
waking up

922
00:39:36,170 --> 00:39:34,680
in fact his body's bloating what's going

923
00:39:40,190 --> 00:39:36,180
on

924
00:39:43,790 --> 00:39:40,200
make it and um

925
00:39:45,290 --> 00:39:43,800
and the problem is that I actually was

926
00:39:47,690 --> 00:39:45,300
in a coma

927
00:39:49,010 --> 00:39:47,700
and they're telling my family this while

928
00:39:51,109 --> 00:39:49,020
I'm there

929
00:39:52,490 --> 00:39:51,119
and I hear the doctor over here saying

930
00:39:55,849 --> 00:39:52,500
well at best we think it'll be a

931
00:39:57,829 --> 00:39:55,859
quadriplegic and blind gasp gasp from

932
00:39:59,270 --> 00:39:57,839
the family over here and inside I'm

933
00:40:01,730 --> 00:39:59,280
going no I'm going to be fine don't

934
00:40:03,170 --> 00:40:01,740
worry about that I can fix this so what

935
00:40:06,310 --> 00:40:03,180
type of coma were you in where you could

936
00:40:09,170 --> 00:40:06,320
actually hear is there a term

937
00:40:10,670 --> 00:40:09,180
yeah it's called impossible that then in

938
00:40:12,650 --> 00:40:10,680
fact no one no one at the hospital

939
00:40:15,829 --> 00:40:12,660
believe me even though I relayed their

940
00:40:17,329 --> 00:40:15,839
their conversations word for word

941
00:40:19,250 --> 00:40:17,339
um yeah

942
00:40:22,130 --> 00:40:19,260
um it was medically induced because they

943
00:40:23,930 --> 00:40:22,140
thought I was gonna not survive

944
00:40:26,390 --> 00:40:23,940
um and they said my brain activity was

945
00:40:29,990 --> 00:40:26,400
very low but I can promise you but

946
00:40:33,050 --> 00:40:30,000
that's typical though yeah yes but I for

947
00:40:35,690 --> 00:40:33,060
me yeah that's funny yeah I did have

948
00:40:39,050 --> 00:40:35,700
brain surgery too that was 28 years ago

949
00:40:40,490 --> 00:40:39,060
now I had to put one in geez yeah yeah I

950
00:40:41,750 --> 00:40:40,500
did look there's a scar right there you

951
00:40:43,430 --> 00:40:41,760
can see oh my God I'm gonna have to do

952
00:40:47,150 --> 00:40:43,440
that after another show after I have

953
00:40:50,510 --> 00:40:47,160
brain surgery I know right yeah so um

954
00:40:53,329 --> 00:40:50,520
anyway uh so I'm in this Como but I'm

955
00:40:56,089 --> 00:40:53,339
wide awake and I'm as awake as I am here

956
00:40:57,470 --> 00:40:56,099
I'm as conscious and able to function as

957
00:40:59,630 --> 00:40:57,480
much as I am here except I couldn't move

958
00:41:02,990 --> 00:40:59,640
I couldn't see

959
00:41:04,849 --> 00:41:03,000
um so I was ahead in the jar that's what

960
00:41:06,530 --> 00:41:04,859
it was because I couldn't feel anybody I

961
00:41:09,109 --> 00:41:06,540
couldn't feel my body at all in any way

962
00:41:11,450 --> 00:41:09,119
wow and that was because of The Strokes

963
00:41:13,490 --> 00:41:11,460
um my brain looks like swiss cheese I

964
00:41:16,130 --> 00:41:13,500
actually have a CD here with the CAT

965
00:41:17,810 --> 00:41:16,140
scan on him my visual Center is

966
00:41:20,329 --> 00:41:17,820
literally all but gone I mean it's back

967
00:41:23,450 --> 00:41:20,339
here it's it's all black

968
00:41:25,910 --> 00:41:23,460
um and I was

969
00:41:27,470 --> 00:41:25,920
um judged to be profoundly blind and

970
00:41:29,990 --> 00:41:27,480
then

971
00:41:32,089 --> 00:41:30,000
um I said to myself hearing them say

972
00:41:34,609 --> 00:41:32,099
that I said I'm gonna fix that I can fix

973
00:41:36,770 --> 00:41:34,619
that I don't know what it was but in

974
00:41:38,810 --> 00:41:36,780
that state you're in better touch with

975
00:41:41,450 --> 00:41:38,820
your body and what's going on

976
00:41:43,250 --> 00:41:41,460
and I could almost feel the spare parts

977
00:41:45,050 --> 00:41:43,260
in there that I had

978
00:41:47,690 --> 00:41:45,060
and I could almost feel that I was going

979
00:41:50,450 --> 00:41:47,700
to have to train them to do new things I

980
00:41:53,390 --> 00:41:50,460
could almost feel that and I realized

981
00:41:56,030 --> 00:41:53,400
we all have this this isn't just me this

982
00:42:00,410 --> 00:41:56,040
isn't mark this is everybody

983
00:42:02,870 --> 00:42:00,420
um and uh so I ended up uh talking to um

984
00:42:06,290 --> 00:42:02,880
some people like I get out of the

985
00:42:08,630 --> 00:42:06,300
hospital after 22 days as a quadriplegic

986
00:42:09,829 --> 00:42:08,640
combined and they brought me to a rehab

987
00:42:11,450 --> 00:42:09,839
hospital

988
00:42:13,069 --> 00:42:11,460
first thing the doctor says when you are

989
00:42:14,930 --> 00:42:13,079
well I gotta actually tell you you know

990
00:42:17,569 --> 00:42:14,940
there's more than this about the

991
00:42:20,210 --> 00:42:17,579
operation but I did have some Nightmares

992
00:42:22,550 --> 00:42:20,220
From the anesthesia but I knew they were

993
00:42:24,230 --> 00:42:22,560
nightmares you know I knew there were

994
00:42:26,690 --> 00:42:24,240
nightmares

995
00:42:28,550 --> 00:42:26,700
um and brought on by the conditions and

996
00:42:29,329 --> 00:42:28,560
everything else

997
00:42:31,550 --> 00:42:29,339
um

998
00:42:33,950 --> 00:42:31,560
I remember

999
00:42:36,230 --> 00:42:33,960
um when I got to the rehab hospital

1000
00:42:37,130 --> 00:42:36,240
after 22 days at Mount Sinai in New York

1001
00:42:38,750 --> 00:42:37,140
City

1002
00:42:40,730 --> 00:42:38,760
I remember being brought in in the

1003
00:42:42,770 --> 00:42:40,740
middle of the night put in a bed

1004
00:42:44,930 --> 00:42:42,780
and the first thing they did was say oh

1005
00:42:46,790 --> 00:42:44,940
that's not a trick that we support and I

1006
00:42:48,650 --> 00:42:46,800
had a tracheotomy at that time

1007
00:42:50,990 --> 00:42:48,660
so they were going to change it

1008
00:42:52,790 --> 00:42:51,000
right there in the spot it was 11 30 at

1009
00:42:54,710 --> 00:42:52,800
night or so it was dark I guess it was

1010
00:42:58,069 --> 00:42:54,720
11 30 I don't know I couldn't see

1011
00:43:00,010 --> 00:42:58,079
and I heard him say uh you know that

1012
00:43:02,569 --> 00:43:00,020
we're gonna have to change it tonight

1013
00:43:03,890 --> 00:43:02,579
and all right so the doctor comes over

1014
00:43:07,190 --> 00:43:03,900
and he says playing with this it's

1015
00:43:09,589 --> 00:43:07,200
hurting like hell and he pulls it out

1016
00:43:12,650 --> 00:43:09,599
oh and I can't breathe now because

1017
00:43:15,230 --> 00:43:12,660
that's all closed up so I'm going oh my

1018
00:43:16,670 --> 00:43:15,240
God so he takes another one and I hear

1019
00:43:18,349 --> 00:43:16,680
him unwrapping it and I'm thinking I'm

1020
00:43:20,630 --> 00:43:18,359
gonna die before this thing gets in you

1021
00:43:22,790 --> 00:43:20,640
guys I said come on man and he finally

1022
00:43:25,670 --> 00:43:22,800
puts it in and it hurts like hell going

1023
00:43:27,290 --> 00:43:25,680
in oh my God and then they Stitch it to

1024
00:43:29,630 --> 00:43:27,300
my chest

1025
00:43:31,250 --> 00:43:29,640
okay and you can feel this pain I can

1026
00:43:33,050 --> 00:43:31,260
feel all that but I couldn't move and I

1027
00:43:35,750 --> 00:43:33,060
couldn't respond and I couldn't you know

1028
00:43:38,390 --> 00:43:35,760
I couldn't do anything nothing wrong

1029
00:43:40,309 --> 00:43:38,400
yeah so I was like a ragdoll nothing and

1030
00:43:41,630 --> 00:43:40,319
I couldn't even see them

1031
00:43:43,190 --> 00:43:41,640
um I could just hear

1032
00:43:44,990 --> 00:43:43,200
and so

1033
00:43:47,089 --> 00:43:45,000
um they got it there and and that was

1034
00:43:49,430 --> 00:43:47,099
fine and then in the morning they come

1035
00:43:52,250 --> 00:43:49,440
in and the nurse comes in and she has

1036
00:43:54,829 --> 00:43:52,260
this long tube and she's approaching and

1037
00:43:56,510 --> 00:43:54,839
she sticks it down in the hole and she

1038
00:43:59,030 --> 00:43:56,520
does what they had to suction it because

1039
00:44:00,530 --> 00:43:59,040
they pull out junk in there every time

1040
00:44:03,349 --> 00:44:00,540
they did that it was like a spider

1041
00:44:05,809 --> 00:44:03,359
inserting fangs into your chest and

1042
00:44:07,010 --> 00:44:05,819
sucking out your insides that's how I

1043
00:44:09,849 --> 00:44:07,020
likened it

1044
00:44:13,069 --> 00:44:09,859
uh and uh so I was like

1045
00:44:14,270 --> 00:44:13,079
oh it's disgusting and gross

1046
00:44:21,410 --> 00:44:14,280
um

1047
00:44:23,750 --> 00:44:21,420
uh being something that I learned to

1048
00:44:25,849 --> 00:44:23,760
actually look forward to because I would

1049
00:44:27,589 --> 00:44:25,859
after a while I could start to feel that

1050
00:44:29,930 --> 00:44:27,599
I was having difficulty breathing and I

1051
00:44:31,370 --> 00:44:29,940
knew I needed to be suctioned

1052
00:44:33,470 --> 00:44:31,380
um and when the nurse would come in with

1053
00:44:34,670 --> 00:44:33,480
that thing I was like oh good and I mean

1054
00:44:36,829 --> 00:44:34,680
I couldn't say that

1055
00:44:38,630 --> 00:44:36,839
and I couldn't you know see her she

1056
00:44:41,030 --> 00:44:38,640
would come in and say okay we're gonna

1057
00:44:43,309 --> 00:44:41,040
suction you now like oh okay good

1058
00:44:45,410 --> 00:44:43,319
and she would do it I'd be fine you know

1059
00:44:47,630 --> 00:44:45,420
oh that's a great feeling after it's

1060
00:44:50,809 --> 00:44:47,640
done you know it's 10 seconds of hell

1061
00:44:52,430 --> 00:44:50,819
for you know four hours of easy

1062
00:44:53,809 --> 00:44:52,440
breathing well anyway

1063
00:44:58,010 --> 00:44:53,819
um

1064
00:45:00,650 --> 00:44:58,020
uh so once uh I got to the rehab

1065
00:45:02,690 --> 00:45:00,660
facility and the first thing he did was

1066
00:45:06,170 --> 00:45:02,700
the doctor comes in in the morning

1067
00:45:08,030 --> 00:45:06,180
and he says hello he goes I am Dr soltis

1068
00:45:09,950 --> 00:45:08,040
from the rehab hospital you know

1069
00:45:10,910 --> 00:45:09,960
Hospital for Special Care in New Britain

1070
00:45:13,970 --> 00:45:10,920
Connecticut

1071
00:45:15,650 --> 00:45:13,980
uh wonderful people you know

1072
00:45:17,089 --> 00:45:15,660
um in fact when I was done I gave my

1073
00:45:18,589 --> 00:45:17,099
Walker and the cane that I usually gave

1074
00:45:19,910 --> 00:45:18,599
it all back to them I gave it to them

1075
00:45:21,890 --> 00:45:19,920
because you know I had to buy it all and

1076
00:45:23,510 --> 00:45:21,900
they gave it to them

1077
00:45:27,290 --> 00:45:23,520
um the um

1078
00:45:29,569 --> 00:45:27,300
the doctor says uh you see you've had

1079
00:45:31,490 --> 00:45:29,579
quite an assault on your brain

1080
00:45:33,290 --> 00:45:31,500
um I couldn't see him but I could hear

1081
00:45:36,650 --> 00:45:33,300
him and he walks close to the bed he's

1082
00:45:38,750 --> 00:45:36,660
about I would guess four feet to my side

1083
00:45:40,309 --> 00:45:38,760
okay and he says well

1084
00:45:43,010 --> 00:45:40,319
here's what's gonna happen you're gonna

1085
00:45:44,870 --> 00:45:43,020
be here with us for eight to ten weeks

1086
00:45:47,210 --> 00:45:44,880
and then you're gonna need about a year

1087
00:45:50,630 --> 00:45:47,220
or two of recovery at home to get back

1088
00:45:53,089 --> 00:45:50,640
to your full motor skills if you can

1089
00:45:55,670 --> 00:45:53,099
I see based on the assaults that you've

1090
00:45:57,890 --> 00:45:55,680
had that that's probably going to be

1091
00:46:00,170 --> 00:45:57,900
somewhat limited but we're going to try

1092
00:46:02,270 --> 00:46:00,180
and help you the best we can

1093
00:46:06,470 --> 00:46:02,280
and I'm thinking well that doesn't work

1094
00:46:09,170 --> 00:46:06,480
for me this was June 15th of 2015. and

1095
00:46:10,849 --> 00:46:09,180
uh the next day they pulled the trach

1096
00:46:11,990 --> 00:46:10,859
out and I could have known to get rid of

1097
00:46:14,990 --> 00:46:12,000
the trach

1098
00:46:17,210 --> 00:46:15,000
doctor came in

1099
00:46:19,069 --> 00:46:17,220
and I said eight to ten weeks

1100
00:46:21,530 --> 00:46:19,079
you know and then a year or two he goes

1101
00:46:23,210 --> 00:46:21,540
yes he goes uh you've had at that time

1102
00:46:26,270 --> 00:46:23,220
they thought four to six Strokes it was

1103
00:46:28,849 --> 00:46:26,280
actually eight uh he said four to six

1104
00:46:31,130 --> 00:46:28,859
Strokes uh yeah you know some people die

1105
00:46:32,450 --> 00:46:31,140
with one stroke you survived with four

1106
00:46:35,510 --> 00:46:32,460
to six so

1107
00:46:38,569 --> 00:46:35,520
uh I would say you're pretty lucky and I

1108
00:46:41,569 --> 00:46:38,579
said yeah I I guess that's true

1109
00:46:42,410 --> 00:46:41,579
um but you have to understand

1110
00:46:45,230 --> 00:46:42,420
um

1111
00:46:46,670 --> 00:46:45,240
it's June right yeah he said June June

1112
00:46:48,770 --> 00:46:46,680
it was that time it was like June 16th

1113
00:46:52,250 --> 00:46:48,780
or 17th he said June 16th

1114
00:46:54,349 --> 00:46:52,260
and it says June 16 right yes

1115
00:46:55,910 --> 00:46:54,359
um in September middle of September I

1116
00:46:56,870 --> 00:46:55,920
have to speak in Los Angeles at a

1117
00:47:01,130 --> 00:46:56,880
conference

1118
00:47:02,329 --> 00:47:01,140
Mutual UFO Network Conference okay I was

1119
00:47:05,210 --> 00:47:02,339
one of the speakers

1120
00:47:07,010 --> 00:47:05,220
and I heard him gasp and he walks over

1121
00:47:08,270 --> 00:47:07,020
to me leans close so I can feel the heat

1122
00:47:11,569 --> 00:47:08,280
from his face

1123
00:47:13,970 --> 00:47:11,579
and he goes uh Mr d'antonio do you

1124
00:47:17,510 --> 00:47:13,980
understand what's happened to you

1125
00:47:19,670 --> 00:47:17,520
and I said yeah I had a few Strokes

1126
00:47:21,050 --> 00:47:19,680
I said but I'm gonna fix it and the

1127
00:47:22,490 --> 00:47:21,060
reason I knew I could fix it was because

1128
00:47:25,550 --> 00:47:22,500
they're in a coma

1129
00:47:27,290 --> 00:47:25,560
uh I worked out a plan I figured out how

1130
00:47:30,230 --> 00:47:27,300
to heal my brain

1131
00:47:32,030 --> 00:47:30,240
uh and I went

1132
00:47:32,930 --> 00:47:32,040
um in that rehab hospital I went from

1133
00:47:35,990 --> 00:47:32,940
being

1134
00:47:37,550 --> 00:47:36,000
a blind quadriplegic to walking out of

1135
00:47:39,849 --> 00:47:37,560
that hospital less than two weeks two

1136
00:47:44,089 --> 00:47:39,859
and a half weeks later

1137
00:47:46,130 --> 00:47:44,099
yeah I got out on July 3rd and I spent

1138
00:47:48,230 --> 00:47:46,140
July 4th at my sister's house I walked

1139
00:47:50,510 --> 00:47:48,240
at my sister's house down into her

1140
00:47:52,670 --> 00:47:50,520
backyard on gravel and sat down and

1141
00:47:54,050 --> 00:47:52,680
watched fireworks okay and I got there

1142
00:47:57,890 --> 00:47:54,060
June 15th

1143
00:48:01,190 --> 00:47:57,900
and wow the reason was because

1144
00:48:03,650 --> 00:48:01,200
um I I learned in the coma I figured out

1145
00:48:05,569 --> 00:48:03,660
how to access those spare parts

1146
00:48:07,490 --> 00:48:05,579
and I've since helped other people with

1147
00:48:08,750 --> 00:48:07,500
this I've taught them about it you know

1148
00:48:10,849 --> 00:48:08,760
I was actually

1149
00:48:12,170 --> 00:48:10,859
you know this is I know it sounds

1150
00:48:14,569 --> 00:48:12,180
self-serving because it hasn't happened

1151
00:48:17,870 --> 00:48:14,579
yet but I was nominated to do a TED talk

1152
00:48:19,250 --> 00:48:17,880
about this because I healed my brain in

1153
00:48:21,950 --> 00:48:19,260
such a short time

1154
00:48:24,349 --> 00:48:21,960
and and my cardiothoracic surgeon he's

1155
00:48:26,510 --> 00:48:24,359
totally with me on this and he wrote me

1156
00:48:28,130 --> 00:48:26,520
a long letter supporting me all this

1157
00:48:30,589 --> 00:48:28,140
saying yeah you know you figured out how

1158
00:48:32,329 --> 00:48:30,599
to get it the the spare parts as I had

1159
00:48:34,670 --> 00:48:32,339
called them to in the brain

1160
00:48:35,750 --> 00:48:34,680
and many people don't and they don't

1161
00:48:38,270 --> 00:48:35,760
ever recover

1162
00:48:40,069 --> 00:48:38,280
I said yeah but it's not too late

1163
00:48:42,109 --> 00:48:40,079
you know I don't think it's too late I

1164
00:48:44,329 --> 00:48:42,119
think this is something we can always do

1165
00:48:46,069 --> 00:48:44,339
is just as well the incident while it's

1166
00:48:47,990 --> 00:48:46,079
still fresh in our minds and it's still

1167
00:48:51,589 --> 00:48:48,000
a uh

1168
00:48:52,790 --> 00:48:51,599
an assault on our our future saying you

1169
00:48:53,750 --> 00:48:52,800
know you're never going to walk again or

1170
00:48:56,089 --> 00:48:53,760
you're never going to be able to see

1171
00:48:59,690 --> 00:48:56,099
again that's when you have to have that

1172
00:49:02,329 --> 00:48:59,700
desperation to call this up and call in

1173
00:49:05,150 --> 00:49:02,339
those spare parts and rewire your brain

1174
00:49:06,829 --> 00:49:05,160
and and rewiring the brain is I think

1175
00:49:10,309 --> 00:49:06,839
what I did

1176
00:49:14,329 --> 00:49:10,319
wow because I know uh I know that the

1177
00:49:17,450 --> 00:49:14,339
brain can do pretty amazing things yeah

1178
00:49:20,270 --> 00:49:17,460
um you know I had uh I had a stepchild

1179
00:49:23,450 --> 00:49:20,280
that was basically missing she had a

1180
00:49:25,730 --> 00:49:23,460
Genesis of the Corso colossum so she was

1181
00:49:27,829 --> 00:49:25,740
basically missing the center part of her

1182
00:49:30,050 --> 00:49:27,839
brain the corpus callosum yeah that's

1183
00:49:31,430 --> 00:49:30,060
the part that that's the what the that's

1184
00:49:32,569 --> 00:49:31,440
the basically the fabric that connects

1185
00:49:36,589 --> 00:49:32,579
the left and right hemispheres together

1186
00:49:39,349 --> 00:49:36,599
yes and she ended up being able to they

1187
00:49:40,910 --> 00:49:39,359
ended up jumping uh she was able to

1188
00:49:43,550 --> 00:49:40,920
actually put her hands together and

1189
00:49:45,530 --> 00:49:43,560
things like that yeah so it really it

1190
00:49:48,470 --> 00:49:45,540
really is quite amazing

1191
00:49:50,450 --> 00:49:48,480
um I wanted to just also uh this is

1192
00:49:53,270 --> 00:49:50,460
really amazing Mark and I I don't know

1193
00:49:55,849 --> 00:49:53,280
if you're willing to talk about

1194
00:49:58,069 --> 00:49:55,859
um your I don't know if it was a

1195
00:49:59,450 --> 00:49:58,079
hallucination or whatever you had but uh

1196
00:50:01,490 --> 00:49:59,460
but I'll get to that in just a minute

1197
00:50:03,470 --> 00:50:01,500
because I I didn't want to point out

1198
00:50:05,870 --> 00:50:03,480
something also that I'm grateful for and

1199
00:50:08,930 --> 00:50:05,880
then we'll move on uh with that and

1200
00:50:11,270 --> 00:50:08,940
that's uh first of all

1201
00:50:13,609 --> 00:50:11,280
all the listeners to my show I mean not

1202
00:50:15,589 --> 00:50:13,619
all the listeners but lots and lots of

1203
00:50:17,630 --> 00:50:15,599
listeners I had so much support from

1204
00:50:20,390 --> 00:50:17,640
everybody you can't believe how many

1205
00:50:23,930 --> 00:50:20,400
emails texts and Facebook and everything

1206
00:50:26,030 --> 00:50:23,940
people were sending me and uh and you

1207
00:50:28,430 --> 00:50:26,040
know people we go to the conferences I

1208
00:50:29,809 --> 00:50:28,440
was supposed to be at and there'd be

1209
00:50:31,370 --> 00:50:29,819
talking there and next thing you know

1210
00:50:34,790 --> 00:50:31,380
I'd hear from someone there and stuff

1211
00:50:37,970 --> 00:50:34,800
like that and then also I want to do a

1212
00:50:42,109 --> 00:50:37,980
shout out to my sister Buffy uh she came

1213
00:50:46,430 --> 00:50:42,119
out from Washington State and took care

1214
00:50:49,069 --> 00:50:46,440
of me she's a retired nurse and uh was a

1215
00:50:52,190 --> 00:50:49,079
nurse for a long time and I'm telling

1216
00:50:55,849 --> 00:50:52,200
you boy she came out and took such great

1217
00:50:57,770 --> 00:50:55,859
care of me uh I owe her so much you know

1218
00:51:00,049 --> 00:50:57,780
I mean it was just amazing and she got

1219
00:51:02,750 --> 00:51:00,059
my whole place in shape too got

1220
00:51:05,569 --> 00:51:02,760
everything all settled here and and uh

1221
00:51:07,730 --> 00:51:05,579
it was uh you know when you have people

1222
00:51:09,829 --> 00:51:07,740
that are close to you that take care of

1223
00:51:12,170 --> 00:51:09,839
you like that it means so much it means

1224
00:51:15,049 --> 00:51:12,180
so much to me you know it's true yeah

1225
00:51:17,569 --> 00:51:15,059
it's true so you got to your sisters for

1226
00:51:19,069 --> 00:51:17,579
fireworks that's good I want to ask you

1227
00:51:21,230 --> 00:51:19,079
though

1228
00:51:25,250 --> 00:51:21,240
are you like a medical miracle because

1229
00:51:28,670 --> 00:51:25,260
they said this wasn't going to happen

1230
00:51:31,069 --> 00:51:28,680
I I I don't know if I would say that I I

1231
00:51:31,970 --> 00:51:31,079
know that I did

1232
00:51:35,690 --> 00:51:31,980
um

1233
00:51:37,549 --> 00:51:35,700
I did teach them some new things

1234
00:51:40,730 --> 00:51:37,559
um the eye doctor at the hospital for

1235
00:51:44,210 --> 00:51:40,740
special care was blown away

1236
00:51:46,490 --> 00:51:44,220
when he met me on the 15th or 16th

1237
00:51:48,710 --> 00:51:46,500
rather the morning of the 16th and said

1238
00:51:51,349 --> 00:51:48,720
well you're you're quite blind your your

1239
00:51:54,049 --> 00:51:51,359
CAT scan shows irreparable damage to

1240
00:51:56,390 --> 00:51:54,059
your visual cortex

1241
00:51:59,569 --> 00:51:56,400
um and um

1242
00:52:01,670 --> 00:51:59,579
I told him well I'm gonna fix that and

1243
00:52:02,930 --> 00:52:01,680
he's like I don't know how you can fix

1244
00:52:04,730 --> 00:52:02,940
it I said

1245
00:52:06,890 --> 00:52:04,740
it's

1246
00:52:08,150 --> 00:52:06,900
I came up with it during the coma doc I

1247
00:52:09,890 --> 00:52:08,160
said

1248
00:52:12,589 --> 00:52:09,900
I'm going to train the brain with pain

1249
00:52:14,030 --> 00:52:12,599
okay because using my eyes looking at

1250
00:52:15,349 --> 00:52:14,040
trying to make my eyes look at something

1251
00:52:17,450 --> 00:52:15,359
on the screen

1252
00:52:18,530 --> 00:52:17,460
I can feel the heat of the screen which

1253
00:52:20,329 --> 00:52:18,540
is something I could never feel before

1254
00:52:22,370 --> 00:52:20,339
the LCD screen I could feel that heat

1255
00:52:24,349 --> 00:52:22,380
and if it was playing some kind of show

1256
00:52:26,030 --> 00:52:24,359
I know there's something going on my

1257
00:52:28,010 --> 00:52:26,040
brain is struggling to make sense of the

1258
00:52:29,990 --> 00:52:28,020
eyes that are functioning and sending

1259
00:52:31,130 --> 00:52:30,000
signals to it but those signals are dead

1260
00:52:32,750 --> 00:52:31,140
ending

1261
00:52:36,770 --> 00:52:32,760
in a part of the brain that no longer

1262
00:52:39,950 --> 00:52:36,780
functions so if you can make them

1263
00:52:42,650 --> 00:52:39,960
get punished enough the brain which has

1264
00:52:45,829 --> 00:52:42,660
evolved to keep the organism you

1265
00:52:48,049 --> 00:52:45,839
out of danger the brain will find a way

1266
00:52:50,030 --> 00:52:48,059
around the pain and that way around the

1267
00:52:52,250 --> 00:52:50,040
pain for many people is just just look

1268
00:52:54,829 --> 00:52:52,260
away or just or close their eyes and

1269
00:52:57,710 --> 00:52:54,839
block their eyes so they don't have to

1270
00:53:01,069 --> 00:52:57,720
watch well I couldn't move

1271
00:53:03,049 --> 00:53:01,079
I couldn't turn my head away hmm so and

1272
00:53:06,410 --> 00:53:03,059
I I could close my eyes but I wasn't

1273
00:53:09,349 --> 00:53:06,420
going to because that pain that I felt I

1274
00:53:11,329 --> 00:53:09,359
it translated to migraine headaches my

1275
00:53:12,470 --> 00:53:11,339
eyes were tearing up from the pain I

1276
00:53:15,890 --> 00:53:12,480
passed out

1277
00:53:19,309 --> 00:53:15,900
uh several times because of the pain and

1278
00:53:21,650 --> 00:53:19,319
when I was looking at the screen

1279
00:53:23,930 --> 00:53:21,660
my brain was getting these signals

1280
00:53:25,670 --> 00:53:23,940
couldn't make sense of them so it was

1281
00:53:28,490 --> 00:53:25,680
trying to do something with them and it

1282
00:53:31,430 --> 00:53:28,500
was it was I could literally imagine my

1283
00:53:33,410 --> 00:53:31,440
brain going stop stop stop

1284
00:53:35,630 --> 00:53:33,420
and then it says

1285
00:53:37,430 --> 00:53:35,640
okay I gotta figure something out and

1286
00:53:40,490 --> 00:53:37,440
then it figures a workaround

1287
00:53:43,609 --> 00:53:40,500
that workaround by the way is instant

1288
00:53:46,190 --> 00:53:43,619
it's instant it's not slow motion it's

1289
00:53:48,290 --> 00:53:46,200
instant so in an instant I went from

1290
00:53:49,549 --> 00:53:48,300
seeing nothing and we'll Define what

1291
00:53:50,990 --> 00:53:49,559
nothing is

1292
00:53:53,210 --> 00:53:51,000
to seeing

1293
00:53:55,069 --> 00:53:53,220
outline of a screen with shadows just

1294
00:53:57,049 --> 00:53:55,079
like that bam

1295
00:53:58,430 --> 00:53:57,059
and that was because my brain said

1296
00:54:00,230 --> 00:53:58,440
enough is enough I've got to do

1297
00:54:02,030 --> 00:54:00,240
something with these signals and it

1298
00:54:03,710 --> 00:54:02,040
found the way around it because the

1299
00:54:06,410 --> 00:54:03,720
brain is trying to you know do what

1300
00:54:08,809 --> 00:54:06,420
brains do keep the organism out of

1301
00:54:10,790 --> 00:54:08,819
danger and out of pain it's like you're

1302
00:54:12,950 --> 00:54:10,800
trying to hold your hand hold that

1303
00:54:14,150 --> 00:54:12,960
finger in a candle flame let's see how

1304
00:54:16,609 --> 00:54:14,160
long you can hold that finger in the

1305
00:54:18,290 --> 00:54:16,619
candle flame you put it in WoW

1306
00:54:20,630 --> 00:54:18,300
it pulls away

1307
00:54:21,890 --> 00:54:20,640
is that you consciously pulling your

1308
00:54:24,589 --> 00:54:21,900
finger out

1309
00:54:26,930 --> 00:54:24,599
oh no it's not

1310
00:54:29,390 --> 00:54:26,940
it's the Primitive brain saying away

1311
00:54:31,730 --> 00:54:29,400
with the danger extract yourself from

1312
00:54:34,069 --> 00:54:31,740
that situation that's dangerous to me

1313
00:54:35,569 --> 00:54:34,079
hmm well in the same way you're

1314
00:54:38,870 --> 00:54:35,579
torturing the brain you're making it

1315
00:54:40,190 --> 00:54:38,880
have a discomfort and that discomfort

1316
00:54:41,630 --> 00:54:40,200
has to be dealt with

1317
00:54:43,849 --> 00:54:41,640
so

1318
00:54:46,069 --> 00:54:43,859
I forced myself to watch a screen I

1319
00:54:49,069 --> 00:54:46,079
couldn't see until I could

1320
00:54:51,950 --> 00:54:49,079
and once I saw the Shadows I knew I was

1321
00:54:53,809 --> 00:54:51,960
going to be able to see it again and

1322
00:54:56,450 --> 00:54:53,819
um I went back to the eye doctor two

1323
00:54:58,549 --> 00:54:56,460
days after that first meeting and I

1324
00:55:02,569 --> 00:54:58,559
asked him to put up the eye chart

1325
00:55:04,910 --> 00:55:02,579
and he a very nice guy very very well

1326
00:55:07,130 --> 00:55:04,920
versed guy Dr Shafiq in the Britain is

1327
00:55:10,510 --> 00:55:07,140
his name at the hospital for special

1328
00:55:13,430 --> 00:55:10,520
care he's there several days a week and

1329
00:55:17,690 --> 00:55:13,440
I said put up the eye chart please could

1330
00:55:20,630 --> 00:55:17,700
you and he went yeah uh eye chart

1331
00:55:22,730 --> 00:55:20,640
you know because I'm blind

1332
00:55:25,010 --> 00:55:22,740
I said yeah yeah the eye chart and he

1333
00:55:27,950 --> 00:55:25,020
puts a pi chart and he turns on that

1334
00:55:29,510 --> 00:55:27,960
white background and there's a big

1335
00:55:32,329 --> 00:55:29,520
letter in there I couldn't see the

1336
00:55:33,349 --> 00:55:32,339
letter I just saw like a black Haze in

1337
00:55:35,270 --> 00:55:33,359
the middle

1338
00:55:37,130 --> 00:55:35,280
but I saw the white square

1339
00:55:40,849 --> 00:55:37,140
and I said oh you just turned it on he

1340
00:55:44,390 --> 00:55:40,859
says you see that you see that yeah I I

1341
00:55:46,910 --> 00:55:44,400
see it how how are you seeing that what

1342
00:55:49,549 --> 00:55:46,920
are you doing and I explained to him the

1343
00:55:51,530 --> 00:55:49,559
the training the brain with pain thing

1344
00:55:55,609 --> 00:55:51,540
and he's like well that doesn't so that

1345
00:55:58,130 --> 00:55:55,619
doesn't work I said I can see it can't I

1346
00:55:59,870 --> 00:55:58,140
think he goes yeah and I'll see you in a

1347
00:56:01,730 --> 00:55:59,880
couple days and he goes I look forward

1348
00:56:04,670 --> 00:56:01,740
to seeing what you can see then

1349
00:56:07,069 --> 00:56:04,680
well two days came and I had been

1350
00:56:09,530 --> 00:56:07,079
watching Netflix

1351
00:56:10,670 --> 00:56:09,540
um for oh gosh probably 20 hours

1352
00:56:12,470 --> 00:56:10,680
straight

1353
00:56:14,870 --> 00:56:12,480
because when you can't see and you get

1354
00:56:16,549 --> 00:56:14,880
it and you get a result like that the

1355
00:56:18,890 --> 00:56:16,559
first thing you do is say I'm gonna see

1356
00:56:20,329 --> 00:56:18,900
I'm gonna make sure I can see and you're

1357
00:56:23,150 --> 00:56:20,339
gonna stick to it you're gonna know that

1358
00:56:26,210 --> 00:56:23,160
every bit of that pain you feel is a

1359
00:56:27,049 --> 00:56:26,220
healing pain it's pain that fits you

1360
00:56:28,670 --> 00:56:27,059
um it doesn't work for everything

1361
00:56:29,329 --> 00:56:28,680
obviously it works for these kinds of

1362
00:56:32,030 --> 00:56:29,339
things

1363
00:56:34,069 --> 00:56:32,040
what about movement

1364
00:56:37,069 --> 00:56:34,079
um you know yeah I had to get my eyes

1365
00:56:39,049 --> 00:56:37,079
back first yeah okay so my eyes came

1366
00:56:41,809 --> 00:56:39,059
back and and what I did was

1367
00:56:43,430 --> 00:56:41,819
I was looking at the screen and it

1368
00:56:47,030 --> 00:56:43,440
wasn't long before I could recognize

1369
00:56:48,410 --> 00:56:47,040
Jerry Seinfeld versus Kramer

1370
00:56:50,390 --> 00:56:48,420
okay

1371
00:56:51,950 --> 00:56:50,400
basically by the size difference I could

1372
00:56:54,309 --> 00:56:51,960
tell the difference and I could see kind

1373
00:56:56,690 --> 00:56:54,319
of the fuzziness

1374
00:56:59,630 --> 00:56:56,700
okay and that's how I do and I hate

1375
00:57:02,210 --> 00:56:59,640
Seinfeld but um you know what

1376
00:57:05,089 --> 00:57:02,220
I was okay with seeing it because it

1377
00:57:07,250 --> 00:57:05,099
meant I could see the word s-e-e was in

1378
00:57:08,930 --> 00:57:07,260
there and I'm okay with that so when I

1379
00:57:11,930 --> 00:57:08,940
went back in he put up the eye chart and

1380
00:57:13,069 --> 00:57:11,940
I read the Top Line it was a p e OTF you

1381
00:57:15,490 --> 00:57:13,079
never forget your first eye chart

1382
00:57:17,089 --> 00:57:15,500
reading after you're blind

1383
00:57:21,530 --> 00:57:17,099
a-p-e-otf

1384
00:57:23,150 --> 00:57:21,540
and uh he was astonished he was making

1385
00:57:25,370 --> 00:57:23,160
noises like a little school he's like

1386
00:57:26,650 --> 00:57:25,380
how do you how do you say oh my gosh oh

1387
00:57:29,750 --> 00:57:26,660
my gosh

1388
00:57:31,430 --> 00:57:29,760
you can see that and I go yeah

1389
00:57:33,770 --> 00:57:31,440
and then I told him what I did I said

1390
00:57:35,150 --> 00:57:33,780
look this is what I did and you should

1391
00:57:37,430 --> 00:57:35,160
teach this to people

1392
00:57:39,829 --> 00:57:37,440
okay when they've had uh this kind of

1393
00:57:42,589 --> 00:57:39,839
assault on their bodies they can recover

1394
00:57:43,970 --> 00:57:42,599
if they train the brain to use alternate

1395
00:57:45,890 --> 00:57:43,980
pathways

1396
00:57:47,930 --> 00:57:45,900
I said I believe in the plastic brain

1397
00:57:51,770 --> 00:57:47,940
and he basically said something like

1398
00:57:53,390 --> 00:57:51,780
well I think I do too you know and um

1399
00:57:55,609 --> 00:57:53,400
and the site only got better from there

1400
00:57:58,190 --> 00:57:55,619
now as far as my hands I had the nurse

1401
00:57:59,690 --> 00:57:58,200
put a ball in my hands and it now I had

1402
00:58:01,309 --> 00:57:59,700
the benefit if you call it that of

1403
00:58:03,230 --> 00:58:01,319
whenever anyone touched me it felt like

1404
00:58:05,270 --> 00:58:03,240
Liquid Fire

1405
00:58:08,030 --> 00:58:05,280
okay and put a ball on my hand and

1406
00:58:10,490 --> 00:58:08,040
squeeze my hand around it felt like lava

1407
00:58:12,410 --> 00:58:10,500
okay just holding my hand if someone

1408
00:58:13,970 --> 00:58:12,420
grabbed my hand and held it those were

1409
00:58:15,530 --> 00:58:13,980
those fingers touched my hand it felt

1410
00:58:20,589 --> 00:58:15,540
like molten lava

1411
00:58:25,790 --> 00:58:23,390
devastatingly painful

1412
00:58:27,109 --> 00:58:25,800
that you tend to want to let go of

1413
00:58:30,589 --> 00:58:27,119
whatever it was that was causing you to

1414
00:58:34,490 --> 00:58:30,599
have that happen so I ended up um

1415
00:58:37,849 --> 00:58:34,500
uh winds like all the ball but I I I let

1416
00:58:39,530 --> 00:58:37,859
the nurse hold my hand upright and her

1417
00:58:41,390 --> 00:58:39,540
name was Linda Hunter wonderful nurse

1418
00:58:43,670 --> 00:58:41,400
and she held my hand up right and she

1419
00:58:45,049 --> 00:58:43,680
said Mr scruffy I don't think I hadn't

1420
00:58:47,150 --> 00:58:45,059
stayed in a while so they called me Mr

1421
00:58:48,829 --> 00:58:47,160
scruffy I don't think that that's a good

1422
00:58:51,049 --> 00:58:48,839
idea yeah it's hurting you I go I know

1423
00:58:52,670 --> 00:58:51,059
Linda but this is what I need this is

1424
00:58:54,230 --> 00:58:52,680
what's going to tell the brain it's got

1425
00:58:56,329 --> 00:58:54,240
to do something about it

1426
00:58:57,710 --> 00:58:56,339
okay so right at this point she's

1427
00:58:59,930 --> 00:58:57,720
holding my hand closed because I can't

1428
00:59:03,770 --> 00:58:59,940
control my fingers or anything and the

1429
00:59:05,690 --> 00:59:03,780
balls in my hand and I I guess while the

1430
00:59:07,490 --> 00:59:05,700
ball was in my hand I think I passed out

1431
00:59:09,289 --> 00:59:07,500
from the pain

1432
00:59:11,089 --> 00:59:09,299
um I never knew what that was pass out

1433
00:59:13,490 --> 00:59:11,099
from the pain what does that mean

1434
00:59:15,230 --> 00:59:13,500
uh it means your senses your brain gets

1435
00:59:17,329 --> 00:59:15,240
overloaded so much that it just reboots

1436
00:59:21,109 --> 00:59:17,339
it shuts down and it really does happen

1437
00:59:22,730 --> 00:59:21,119
and I now know what that's like well I

1438
00:59:25,370 --> 00:59:22,740
was holding the ball like this and when

1439
00:59:27,109 --> 00:59:25,380
I put when I seemingly passed out she

1440
00:59:29,630 --> 00:59:27,119
may have thought I fell asleep

1441
00:59:30,890 --> 00:59:29,640
so she just left you know and left the

1442
00:59:33,410 --> 00:59:30,900
ball in my hand

1443
00:59:36,490 --> 00:59:33,420
and when she came back in and woke me up

1444
00:59:39,109 --> 00:59:36,500
for vitals every six seconds as they do

1445
00:59:41,150 --> 00:59:39,119
yes okay

1446
00:59:43,730 --> 00:59:41,160
um my hand was sideways and the ball was

1447
00:59:45,770 --> 00:59:43,740
in my lap on top of the bed spread

1448
00:59:47,390 --> 00:59:45,780
and I said oh it must have been an

1449
00:59:49,010 --> 00:59:47,400
unconscious twitch or something Linda

1450
00:59:50,750 --> 00:59:49,020
can you put it back in my hand she was

1451
00:59:53,150 --> 00:59:50,760
yes came to Scruffy she puts it back in

1452
00:59:56,390 --> 00:59:53,160
my hand closes around it's burning like

1453
00:59:59,150 --> 00:59:56,400
hell and my hand goes like this ah

1454
01:00:01,309 --> 00:59:59,160
my fingers open and it balls it

1455
01:00:04,190 --> 01:00:01,319
goes ah it flips out

1456
01:00:07,609 --> 01:00:04,200
and she goes oh Mr scruffy did you do

1457
01:00:09,710 --> 01:00:07,619
that I went yeah I did Linda I said so

1458
01:00:12,349 --> 01:00:09,720
congratulate congratulate me now I'm a

1459
01:00:13,789 --> 01:00:12,359
paraplegic not a quadriplegic huh and

1460
01:00:17,150 --> 01:00:13,799
she goes oh my God I go yeah little

1461
01:00:19,010 --> 01:00:17,160
victories and that led to the wrist

1462
01:00:21,230 --> 01:00:19,020
movement that led to the Elbow led to

1463
01:00:23,089 --> 01:00:21,240
the shoulder and then the ball in this

1464
01:00:25,370 --> 01:00:23,099
hand led to this hand and his shoulder

1465
01:00:27,890 --> 01:00:25,380
and then the shoulders led to the Torso

1466
01:00:30,470 --> 01:00:27,900
which led to the hips and then he could

1467
01:00:32,569 --> 01:00:30,480
push my feet down to the bottom of the

1468
01:00:35,210 --> 01:00:32,579
bed where they are pressing against the

1469
01:00:37,609 --> 01:00:35,220
bottom of the bed and that burned like

1470
01:00:38,930 --> 01:00:37,619
you can't imagine and that led to my

1471
01:00:41,870 --> 01:00:38,940
feet coming back

1472
01:00:45,530 --> 01:00:41,880
okay same thing on the other side so

1473
01:00:48,170 --> 01:00:45,540
um it was the the pain I used pain

1474
01:00:50,510 --> 01:00:48,180
um to to actually as a healing measure

1475
01:00:52,549 --> 01:00:50,520
most people want a pill for the pain in

1476
01:00:54,170 --> 01:00:52,559
this particular case that pain is the

1477
01:00:57,289 --> 01:00:54,180
best thing you can have because that

1478
01:00:59,030 --> 01:00:57,299
pain signals that it's trying to fix

1479
01:01:02,650 --> 01:00:59,040
itself and you don't want to thwart that

1480
01:01:06,049 --> 01:01:02,660
you want to actually push through that

1481
01:01:07,849 --> 01:01:06,059
what was the terrible pain yeah I never

1482
01:01:08,690 --> 01:01:07,859
knew this all the times we talked I've

1483
01:01:11,569 --> 01:01:08,700
never

1484
01:01:13,730 --> 01:01:11,579
knew this part of it it's really quite

1485
01:01:16,549 --> 01:01:13,740
amazing I mean it sure sounds like a

1486
01:01:19,010 --> 01:01:16,559
miracle to me uh you're curing yourself

1487
01:01:20,990 --> 01:01:19,020
basically of something that people could

1488
01:01:23,089 --> 01:01:21,000
be strapped with the rest of their lives

1489
01:01:25,789 --> 01:01:23,099
really you know but see everybody can do

1490
01:01:28,730 --> 01:01:25,799
this and I got a call from a guy in the

1491
01:01:30,829 --> 01:01:28,740
midwest he was a doctor and he'd had a

1492
01:01:32,450 --> 01:01:30,839
stroke so his wife called me and I said

1493
01:01:34,609 --> 01:01:32,460
my husband had a stroke we have a

1494
01:01:35,690 --> 01:01:34,619
practice and we're in danger of losing

1495
01:01:38,510 --> 01:01:35,700
our practice

1496
01:01:40,069 --> 01:01:38,520
and I was home by then and so how long I

1497
01:01:41,750 --> 01:01:40,079
said I'm not a doctor but I can share

1498
01:01:44,569 --> 01:01:41,760
how I got better maybe that'll help them

1499
01:01:47,270 --> 01:01:44,579
and I know and she goes okay and I go

1500
01:01:48,890 --> 01:01:47,280
well how long has he had this stroke

1501
01:01:51,549 --> 01:01:48,900
when was oh he had like four months

1502
01:01:55,069 --> 01:01:51,559
three months ago four months ago

1503
01:01:57,650 --> 01:01:55,079
okay so what's his condition now well

1504
01:01:59,150 --> 01:01:57,660
his hands were all postured up and he

1505
01:02:02,210 --> 01:01:59,160
can't move him

1506
01:02:05,030 --> 01:02:02,220
and uh I said can he see yes you can see

1507
01:02:07,490 --> 01:02:05,040
just fine can he talk yes he can talk

1508
01:02:09,950 --> 01:02:07,500
but his hands are stroked he goes yeah

1509
01:02:12,829 --> 01:02:09,960
he has movement issues and his hands are

1510
01:02:14,750 --> 01:02:12,839
in a typical uh position they're all

1511
01:02:16,670 --> 01:02:14,760
like this you know

1512
01:02:17,510 --> 01:02:16,680
um and I said Okay

1513
01:02:19,609 --> 01:02:17,520
um

1514
01:02:21,829 --> 01:02:19,619
I can only offer you I told her what I

1515
01:02:23,510 --> 01:02:21,839
did with the with the pain and she said

1516
01:02:25,010 --> 01:02:23,520
yeah he doesn't feel any pain he doesn't

1517
01:02:26,390 --> 01:02:25,020
feel anything actually

1518
01:02:28,670 --> 01:02:26,400
hmm

1519
01:02:29,690 --> 01:02:28,680
well we can try something

1520
01:02:31,430 --> 01:02:29,700
um

1521
01:02:33,349 --> 01:02:31,440
does he trust you

1522
01:02:35,089 --> 01:02:33,359
well of course he does

1523
01:02:37,309 --> 01:02:35,099
okay

1524
01:02:39,530 --> 01:02:37,319
I have an idea

1525
01:02:41,450 --> 01:02:39,540
again I'm not a doctor

1526
01:02:43,910 --> 01:02:41,460
but the thing that the brain reacts to

1527
01:02:45,230 --> 01:02:43,920
is pain and the other thing it reacts to

1528
01:02:47,870 --> 01:02:45,240
is fear

1529
01:02:49,670 --> 01:02:47,880
pain in fear those two things are what

1530
01:02:51,770 --> 01:02:49,680
have helped evolve the brain to keep the

1531
01:02:53,030 --> 01:02:51,780
organism out of danger I told her

1532
01:02:55,789 --> 01:02:53,040
so

1533
01:02:57,890 --> 01:02:55,799
how about this

1534
01:02:59,450 --> 01:02:57,900
can his hands be pulled down yeah they

1535
01:03:01,789 --> 01:02:59,460
can be pulled down but they just sort of

1536
01:03:03,470 --> 01:03:01,799
go back as okay you pull them down

1537
01:03:05,809 --> 01:03:03,480
and put a book on them whatever you have

1538
01:03:07,609 --> 01:03:05,819
to do to hold them down the hand and

1539
01:03:10,370 --> 01:03:07,619
then take a needle

1540
01:03:12,589 --> 01:03:10,380
and tell him I'm not sure honey I might

1541
01:03:14,750 --> 01:03:12,599
stick you but I'm gonna go walk and I

1542
01:03:18,230 --> 01:03:14,760
call it the walk walk his fingers with

1543
01:03:20,150 --> 01:03:18,240
that needle and and touch the tip so you

1544
01:03:23,630 --> 01:03:20,160
can see the needle touching the tip

1545
01:03:26,270 --> 01:03:23,640
he'll see that yes he will okay

1546
01:03:27,890 --> 01:03:26,280
don't tell him you won't stick him let

1547
01:03:29,930 --> 01:03:27,900
him think you might

1548
01:03:32,030 --> 01:03:29,940
the brain has to think it's in danger

1549
01:03:35,450 --> 01:03:32,040
for this to work I know it's a rotten

1550
01:03:38,030 --> 01:03:35,460
thing to sound like I'm saying right but

1551
01:03:40,670 --> 01:03:38,040
um you know I said try the walk on his

1552
01:03:44,390 --> 01:03:40,680
fingers and and give it some time

1553
01:03:45,890 --> 01:03:44,400
and he might find that his brain says I

1554
01:03:47,630 --> 01:03:45,900
can't handle this anymore I can't be

1555
01:03:49,430 --> 01:03:47,640
that's a very sensitive area I don't

1556
01:03:50,750 --> 01:03:49,440
want you sticking my fingers with a

1557
01:03:53,089 --> 01:03:50,760
needle

1558
01:03:55,190 --> 01:03:53,099
and His Hands may come back

1559
01:03:56,990 --> 01:03:55,200
and I said I can't promise it of course

1560
01:03:59,450 --> 01:03:57,000
but it's the it's the one thing that

1561
01:04:01,789 --> 01:03:59,460
appeals to the Primitive brain and he

1562
01:04:03,650 --> 01:04:01,799
says okay I'll try it I didn't hear from

1563
01:04:05,210 --> 01:04:03,660
the guy for six weeks while I was

1564
01:04:06,710 --> 01:04:05,220
streaming from The Observatory if we're

1565
01:04:07,730 --> 01:04:06,720
gonna stream tonight actually after we

1566
01:04:09,589 --> 01:04:07,740
talked

1567
01:04:12,430 --> 01:04:09,599
um I'm in a stream we're gonna stream

1568
01:04:15,829 --> 01:04:12,440
Mars going behind the Moon tonight

1569
01:04:17,930 --> 01:04:15,839
oculation occultation occultation yeah

1570
01:04:19,430 --> 01:04:17,940
quotations to Mars by the munya and

1571
01:04:21,530 --> 01:04:19,440
they'll be Sky Tour live stream on

1572
01:04:23,450 --> 01:04:21,540
YouTube right well

1573
01:04:27,289 --> 01:04:23,460
um I was streaming uh with my

1574
01:04:29,030 --> 01:04:27,299
Observatory and uh in the chat somebody

1575
01:04:32,089 --> 01:04:29,040
writes in the chat and it was Amanda

1576
01:04:34,609 --> 01:04:32,099
Curtin at the time who was a co-host she

1577
01:04:37,789 --> 01:04:34,619
said Mark there's a doctor from Texas

1578
01:04:40,010 --> 01:04:37,799
who's in the chat oh okay sorry because

1579
01:04:41,870 --> 01:04:40,020
I don't know how dark are you fine he

1580
01:04:44,870 --> 01:04:41,880
said and he writes in all caps

1581
01:04:48,230 --> 01:04:44,880
everything you said came true what

1582
01:04:50,270 --> 01:04:48,240
everything you said he says it's me my

1583
01:04:54,710 --> 01:04:50,280
wife talked to you wow are you typing

1584
01:04:59,450 --> 01:04:54,720
this yes I am huh he wrote I got my life

1585
01:05:02,870 --> 01:04:59,460
back now wow made my night oh my God yes

1586
01:05:05,569 --> 01:05:02,880
made my night yeah you know so

1587
01:05:07,970 --> 01:05:05,579
since then another person had had a

1588
01:05:10,970 --> 01:05:07,980
stroke and was having balance issues and

1589
01:05:13,069 --> 01:05:10,980
I told him about what I felt might be a

1590
01:05:15,650 --> 01:05:13,079
good way again appeal to the fear or

1591
01:05:18,410 --> 01:05:15,660
pain side of the brain okay use it to

1592
01:05:20,450 --> 01:05:18,420
heal and I said can you stand on two

1593
01:05:22,789 --> 01:05:20,460
feet and stand up tall on your balls or

1594
01:05:26,750 --> 01:05:22,799
your feet oh no I might fall

1595
01:05:28,430 --> 01:05:26,760
do it but hold on to a counter and then

1596
01:05:30,109 --> 01:05:28,440
let go of the counter

1597
01:05:32,510 --> 01:05:30,119
okay even if you're leading against the

1598
01:05:34,309 --> 01:05:32,520
content let go let your brain think that

1599
01:05:38,089 --> 01:05:34,319
it might fall

1600
01:05:41,210 --> 01:05:38,099
okay and your brain will snap into

1601
01:05:43,789 --> 01:05:41,220
overdrive and it could probably help fix

1602
01:05:46,010 --> 01:05:43,799
you again I'm no neurologist but I can

1603
01:05:48,530 --> 01:05:46,020
tell you this we're going we're treading

1604
01:05:50,569 --> 01:05:48,540
we're no neurologist has ever dread not

1605
01:05:53,450 --> 01:05:50,579
like this and

1606
01:05:55,549 --> 01:05:53,460
um so he said I'll try it and he tried

1607
01:05:57,589 --> 01:05:55,559
it and

1608
01:05:59,030 --> 01:05:57,599
um I talked to him some weeks later and

1609
01:06:00,109 --> 01:05:59,040
I was talking about this with someone

1610
01:06:03,230 --> 01:06:00,119
else

1611
01:06:05,450 --> 01:06:03,240
and he pipes in yeah it got my balance

1612
01:06:07,549 --> 01:06:05,460
back I'm like really you got your pounce

1613
01:06:10,430 --> 01:06:07,559
you never shared that with me oh yeah no

1614
01:06:12,049 --> 01:06:10,440
it worked it worked I got my bounce back

1615
01:06:13,190 --> 01:06:12,059
really quick actually

1616
01:06:15,650 --> 01:06:13,200
so

1617
01:06:18,349 --> 01:06:15,660
it works you know it's a technique again

1618
01:06:20,210 --> 01:06:18,359
pain and fear I'm not saying if you're

1619
01:06:22,130 --> 01:06:20,220
you have balance issues go stand at the

1620
01:06:25,490 --> 01:06:22,140
top of the stairs and oh yeah that's

1621
01:06:27,049 --> 01:06:25,500
nutty now is this oh go ahead sorry no

1622
01:06:28,309 --> 01:06:27,059
but you have safety measures in place

1623
01:06:32,210 --> 01:06:28,319
obvious yeah you don't want to be crazy

1624
01:06:35,750 --> 01:06:32,220
right right now is this before you had

1625
01:06:38,270 --> 01:06:35,760
this situation happen had you looked

1626
01:06:41,450 --> 01:06:38,280
into this stuff or heard about it or

1627
01:06:43,609 --> 01:06:41,460
read about it uh how did you know that

1628
01:06:46,609 --> 01:06:43,619
you're going to be able to fix yourself

1629
01:06:47,329 --> 01:06:46,619
basically well

1630
01:06:49,190 --> 01:06:47,339
um

1631
01:06:50,930 --> 01:06:49,200
there was a three and a half hour time

1632
01:06:53,150 --> 01:06:50,940
period that my heart was stopped and in

1633
01:06:54,470 --> 01:06:53,160
that three and a half hours

1634
01:06:57,289 --> 01:06:54,480
um I was

1635
01:07:00,049 --> 01:06:57,299
ripped out of my body a science guy here

1636
01:07:01,670 --> 01:07:00,059
okay and taken to New Mexico by Native

1637
01:07:04,789 --> 01:07:01,680
Americans okay my mother was Native

1638
01:07:07,130 --> 01:07:04,799
American and Irish and

1639
01:07:08,510 --> 01:07:07,140
um they said they were ancestors so I

1640
01:07:10,010 --> 01:07:08,520
was like okay whatever

1641
01:07:11,750 --> 01:07:10,020
and it was a three and a half hour

1642
01:07:14,690 --> 01:07:11,760
journey I remember every second of it to

1643
01:07:17,450 --> 01:07:14,700
this day okay and the bottom behind it

1644
01:07:20,049 --> 01:07:17,460
you have like a sort of like an outer

1645
01:07:23,930 --> 01:07:20,059
body type

1646
01:07:25,970 --> 01:07:23,940
that's how it was portrayed yes and

1647
01:07:29,809 --> 01:07:25,980
um basically

1648
01:07:33,230 --> 01:07:29,819
um I ended up going to um whoops sorry

1649
01:07:33,950 --> 01:07:33,240
I'm sorry I'm still here

1650
01:07:36,589 --> 01:07:33,960
um

1651
01:07:39,710 --> 01:07:36,599
they took me to New Mexico and in in

1652
01:07:40,910 --> 01:07:39,720
this in this situation I ended up in the

1653
01:07:44,329 --> 01:07:40,920
Mexican desert and it was a beautiful

1654
01:07:46,010 --> 01:07:44,339
sunset which gradually I'm in the

1655
01:07:47,690 --> 01:07:46,020
interest of time I am literally cutting

1656
01:07:50,329 --> 01:07:47,700
it down to nothing

1657
01:07:51,470 --> 01:07:50,339
um it ended up becoming a dreary dismal

1658
01:07:53,510 --> 01:07:51,480
Gray

1659
01:07:55,730 --> 01:07:53,520
seen because something black and

1660
01:07:58,190 --> 01:07:55,740
amorphous was covering the Sun

1661
01:07:59,930 --> 01:07:58,200
and they were very frantic it was a male

1662
01:08:01,430 --> 01:07:59,940
and female the kid is the only one they

1663
01:08:04,069 --> 01:08:01,440
saw in the west face I could see it now

1664
01:08:06,890 --> 01:08:04,079
I could draw them okay and the female

1665
01:08:09,349 --> 01:08:06,900
was out of shot she was always over here

1666
01:08:11,329 --> 01:08:09,359
all right she never came in enough to

1667
01:08:13,549 --> 01:08:11,339
see she was always over here and I

1668
01:08:17,209 --> 01:08:13,559
couldn't move to look at her I had I was

1669
01:08:21,890 --> 01:08:17,219
only facing straight ahead okay and so

1670
01:08:22,870 --> 01:08:21,900
uh again it's just the way it was and so

1671
01:08:26,269 --> 01:08:22,880
then

1672
01:08:29,930 --> 01:08:26,279
uh she said something in Navajo

1673
01:08:32,870 --> 01:08:29,940
and I knew it was Navajo somehow and the

1674
01:08:35,050 --> 01:08:32,880
kids said okay I agree with that and he

1675
01:08:38,209 --> 01:08:35,060
put a gun in my lap

1676
01:08:40,550 --> 01:08:38,219
uh a big handgun it was a big stainless

1677
01:08:42,289 --> 01:08:40,560
steel silver handgun and I'm sitting

1678
01:08:43,070 --> 01:08:42,299
there going how am I supposed to do with

1679
01:08:45,289 --> 01:08:43,080
that

1680
01:08:47,390 --> 01:08:45,299
he goes you're gonna use it I said very

1681
01:08:49,249 --> 01:08:47,400
funny I can't even move how the hell am

1682
01:08:51,530 --> 01:08:49,259
I supposed to use that you piece of beef

1683
01:08:53,809 --> 01:08:51,540
no I was swearing these kids I was just

1684
01:08:54,769 --> 01:08:53,819
really really terrible to him I can tell

1685
01:08:58,430 --> 01:08:54,779
you right now

1686
01:09:01,070 --> 01:08:58,440
and he says and she says something uh in

1687
01:09:05,269 --> 01:09:01,080
Navajo and he says yeah I agree what

1688
01:09:09,530 --> 01:09:07,189
she goes you're he says you're thick

1689
01:09:11,570 --> 01:09:09,540
this is symbology okay the gun is a

1690
01:09:13,849 --> 01:09:11,580
symbol all right you don't actually have

1691
01:09:16,070 --> 01:09:13,859
to use it you're gonna use it but you're

1692
01:09:17,510 --> 01:09:16,080
you're gonna use it okay our way or

1693
01:09:19,970 --> 01:09:17,520
whatever that means

1694
01:09:21,410 --> 01:09:19,980
uh and then that black amorphous thing

1695
01:09:23,150 --> 01:09:21,420
now was getting bigger and bigger and

1696
01:09:26,329 --> 01:09:23,160
covering the sun even more

1697
01:09:28,430 --> 01:09:26,339
and she said something like okay now to

1698
01:09:29,150 --> 01:09:28,440
him and he says okay she says shoot it

1699
01:09:31,490 --> 01:09:29,160
now

1700
01:09:34,729 --> 01:09:31,500
how am I supposed to do that it again

1701
01:09:36,349 --> 01:09:34,739
just imagine that you're holding it and

1702
01:09:37,910 --> 01:09:36,359
use your eyes I know you can't look at

1703
01:09:39,829 --> 01:09:37,920
the sun look at you with the eyes it was

1704
01:09:42,110 --> 01:09:39,839
right the extreme left of my vision

1705
01:09:43,970 --> 01:09:42,120
and and imagine you're shooting it and I

1706
01:09:47,150 --> 01:09:43,980
went Jesus I feel like such an idiot

1707
01:09:50,570 --> 01:09:47,160
okay bang bang and two things fell off

1708
01:09:53,150 --> 01:09:50,580
of it what two black things came away I

1709
01:09:55,010 --> 01:09:53,160
went what the heck happened there and I

1710
01:09:56,450 --> 01:09:55,020
went and basically they were frantic

1711
01:09:59,330 --> 01:09:56,460
they said it's coming all the way until

1712
01:10:01,070 --> 01:09:59,340
we got to that spot in the desert okay

1713
01:10:03,470 --> 01:10:01,080
they said it's coming we got to do this

1714
01:10:05,510 --> 01:10:03,480
right now and then she said shoot now

1715
01:10:07,189 --> 01:10:05,520
shoot now so I went bang bang bang bang

1716
01:10:08,810 --> 01:10:07,199
and I kept doing that and more stuff

1717
01:10:10,790 --> 01:10:08,820
keep falling away

1718
01:10:13,430 --> 01:10:10,800
and now I'm intrigued

1719
01:10:15,290 --> 01:10:13,440
okay because now I'm seeing something

1720
01:10:18,229 --> 01:10:15,300
that's responding a physical thing

1721
01:10:20,209 --> 01:10:18,239
responding to my words that shouldn't

1722
01:10:22,070 --> 01:10:20,219
possibly be able to happen

1723
01:10:24,110 --> 01:10:22,080
so I'm intrigued by this so I keep

1724
01:10:26,630 --> 01:10:24,120
saying bang bang bang bang bang and it

1725
01:10:28,669 --> 01:10:26,640
just Falls away until finally the sun is

1726
01:10:31,130 --> 01:10:28,679
out again and the black thing is gone

1727
01:10:33,050 --> 01:10:31,140
and the new Mexican sunset is beautiful

1728
01:10:35,990 --> 01:10:33,060
the red clouds illuminated on the

1729
01:10:38,330 --> 01:10:36,000
horizon it was stunning and this is the

1730
01:10:40,430 --> 01:10:38,340
the kid comes over now it's the first

1731
01:10:43,070 --> 01:10:40,440
time I saw that he had teeth

1732
01:10:45,410 --> 01:10:43,080
okay big grinned with teeth that were

1733
01:10:46,729 --> 01:10:45,420
like too big for his face it seemed he

1734
01:10:47,810 --> 01:10:46,739
puts his arm around me says you are

1735
01:10:50,390 --> 01:10:47,820
going to be all right you know that

1736
01:10:51,350 --> 01:10:50,400
don't you and I went yeah okay I guess I

1737
01:10:52,850 --> 01:10:51,360
do

1738
01:10:54,530 --> 01:10:52,860
all right and then they started walking

1739
01:10:56,149 --> 01:10:54,540
away leaving me in the desert and they

1740
01:10:58,010 --> 01:10:56,159
go hey what the hell are you doing I'm

1741
01:11:00,169 --> 01:10:58,020
supposed to be in surgery aren't you

1742
01:11:02,209 --> 01:11:00,179
gonna take me back and again she says

1743
01:11:03,709 --> 01:11:02,219
something in Navajo again and the kid

1744
01:11:05,930 --> 01:11:03,719
laughs this time because he didn't laugh

1745
01:11:07,970 --> 01:11:05,940
before and he looks at me and he goes

1746
01:11:09,709 --> 01:11:07,980
you really are thick aren't you he goes

1747
01:11:11,030 --> 01:11:09,719
you never left

1748
01:11:12,649 --> 01:11:11,040
what

1749
01:11:15,649 --> 01:11:12,659
boom

1750
01:11:17,510 --> 01:11:15,659
back in the hospital in the coma now and

1751
01:11:19,490 --> 01:11:17,520
I knew at that point that I was going to

1752
01:11:22,850 --> 01:11:19,500
be fine I just had to work out the

1753
01:11:24,530 --> 01:11:22,860
mechanism now the doctor came in he said

1754
01:11:26,209 --> 01:11:24,540
to me you know he this is what he said

1755
01:11:29,510 --> 01:11:26,219
he goes

1756
01:11:31,430 --> 01:11:29,520
you know we we did the surgery and you

1757
01:11:33,350 --> 01:11:31,440
didn't wake up because I told him he

1758
01:11:35,270 --> 01:11:33,360
promised to be straight with me remember

1759
01:11:37,070 --> 01:11:35,280
okay we agreed you would tell me

1760
01:11:38,990 --> 01:11:37,080
everything he says we did the surgery

1761
01:11:41,209 --> 01:11:39,000
you didn't wake up it's good that you

1762
01:11:42,950 --> 01:11:41,219
woke up now can you understand me you

1763
01:11:45,830 --> 01:11:42,960
know blink once we asked twice went on I

1764
01:11:48,950 --> 01:11:45,840
blinked once okay he says you in any

1765
01:11:51,830 --> 01:11:48,960
pain and I blinked SOS dot dot dot dash

1766
01:11:53,750 --> 01:11:51,840
dash dash and he left he got it oh he

1767
01:11:55,130 --> 01:11:53,760
blinked SOS and everybody I heard all

1768
01:11:58,130 --> 01:11:55,140
this laughing it's like what the hell is

1769
01:11:59,510 --> 01:11:58,140
that for because it was a cognitive clue

1770
01:12:01,850 --> 01:11:59,520
I didn't realize they were looking for

1771
01:12:04,850 --> 01:12:01,860
that okay and cognitively I'm still

1772
01:12:06,950 --> 01:12:04,860
there so um he says okay here's what

1773
01:12:10,430 --> 01:12:06,960
happened we did the surgery but there

1774
01:12:13,010 --> 01:12:10,440
was a clot uh in the pulmonary uh area

1775
01:12:15,169 --> 01:12:13,020
it got loose from us

1776
01:12:19,310 --> 01:12:15,179
um and it went to the brain

1777
01:12:21,830 --> 01:12:19,320
he says so uh you you have to understand

1778
01:12:24,290 --> 01:12:21,840
that the only reason you're here is

1779
01:12:26,030 --> 01:12:24,300
because you know and call it a blessing

1780
01:12:27,229 --> 01:12:26,040
call it a curse

1781
01:12:28,850 --> 01:12:27,239
um the only reason you hear is because

1782
01:12:31,130 --> 01:12:28,860
for some reason when it got to the brain

1783
01:12:35,390 --> 01:12:31,140
it blew up into a million pieces

1784
01:12:36,890 --> 01:12:35,400
and that saved your life hmm wow that

1785
01:12:38,630 --> 01:12:36,900
was me I didn't know what that was

1786
01:12:42,890 --> 01:12:38,640
shooting you're shooting them with the

1787
01:12:44,689 --> 01:12:42,900
gun I was shooting the clot that's well

1788
01:12:45,590 --> 01:12:44,699
you know that's kind of what you would

1789
01:12:48,169 --> 01:12:45,600
think through right that's what you

1790
01:12:50,030 --> 01:12:48,179
think about it and so it was like holy

1791
01:12:52,010 --> 01:12:50,040
cow and of course I had a trick at that

1792
01:12:54,050 --> 01:12:52,020
point all here was

1793
01:12:56,689 --> 01:12:54,060
he couldn't hear me saying I know what

1794
01:12:59,330 --> 01:12:56,699
that is I know what that is

1795
01:13:02,870 --> 01:12:59,340
so so yeah so that's pretty interesting

1796
01:13:04,550 --> 01:13:02,880
you know uh how that occurred and yeah

1797
01:13:07,310 --> 01:13:04,560
and so then

1798
01:13:10,310 --> 01:13:07,320
um I uh I got another Rehab Hospital

1799
01:13:12,770 --> 01:13:10,320
like I said uh just two and a half weeks

1800
01:13:14,330 --> 01:13:12,780
later and when I was did you have to do

1801
01:13:17,209 --> 01:13:14,340
the same thing with talking pardon me

1802
01:13:19,250 --> 01:13:17,219
for interrupt oh yeah yeah I I didn't I

1803
01:13:21,070 --> 01:13:19,260
couldn't talk and

1804
01:13:24,229 --> 01:13:21,080
um I had to learn how to talk again too

1805
01:13:25,910 --> 01:13:24,239
and uh I started saying vocabulary words

1806
01:13:28,550 --> 01:13:25,920
to the point where the guy in the room

1807
01:13:30,890 --> 01:13:28,560
with me said that I wouldn't shut up I

1808
01:13:31,729 --> 01:13:30,900
kept talking and saying gibberish he

1809
01:13:35,149 --> 01:13:31,739
said

1810
01:13:36,290 --> 01:13:35,159
and I was it was gibberish to me I was

1811
01:13:38,930 --> 01:13:36,300
trying to say

1812
01:13:43,870 --> 01:13:38,940
there's a brown fox jumping over the

1813
01:13:49,070 --> 01:13:46,850
okay so that's not working so I had to I

1814
01:13:50,510 --> 01:13:49,080
had to work it out you know so I asked

1815
01:13:52,370 --> 01:13:50,520
the nurse for a mirror now remember I

1816
01:13:55,490 --> 01:13:52,380
got my eyes a little bit back I got my

1817
01:13:56,930 --> 01:13:55,500
my hands and my legs a little bit so now

1818
01:13:59,870 --> 01:13:56,940
I have a mirror in front of me and I'm

1819
01:14:02,630 --> 01:13:59,880
watching my face and I'm watching what I

1820
01:14:05,330 --> 01:14:02,640
say and I'm watching me say the brown

1821
01:14:06,490 --> 01:14:05,340
fox okay the blue what's that what's

1822
01:14:09,950 --> 01:14:06,500
that no

1823
01:14:11,630 --> 01:14:09,960
brown brown and I would squeeze my

1824
01:14:14,770 --> 01:14:11,640
cheeks as best I could it's sort of

1825
01:14:19,090 --> 01:14:14,780
awkward and I said the brown

1826
01:14:24,350 --> 01:14:21,350
and I would just say words over and over

1827
01:14:27,290 --> 01:14:24,360
and my brain was going I remember that

1828
01:14:29,390 --> 01:14:27,300
okay I remember that and then boom I

1829
01:14:32,030 --> 01:14:29,400
never had to work on it again Brown I

1830
01:14:35,090 --> 01:14:32,040
had Brown okay and I went through a lot

1831
01:14:37,370 --> 01:14:35,100
of vocabulary words and they helped me

1832
01:14:40,970 --> 01:14:37,380
with other words I didn't even say you

1833
01:14:45,290 --> 01:14:40,980
know they it the crossover was amazing

1834
01:14:47,570 --> 01:14:45,300
um and then I uh I ended up

1835
01:14:49,729 --> 01:14:47,580
well let's see the the last word I

1836
01:14:51,370 --> 01:14:49,739
worked on was believe it or not the word

1837
01:14:54,590 --> 01:14:51,380
words

1838
01:14:57,370 --> 01:14:54,600
w-o-r-d-s I couldn't say it it was

1839
01:15:01,510 --> 01:14:57,380
coming out with with

1840
01:15:05,689 --> 01:15:01,520
so I watched my face with three

1841
01:15:09,050 --> 01:15:05,699
were words Brown words I was just doing

1842
01:15:12,709 --> 01:15:09,060
that kind of silly stuff and I went okay

1843
01:15:14,630 --> 01:15:12,719
uh words oh I was saying it was like a

1844
01:15:16,010 --> 01:15:14,640
bing and then from that point forward my

1845
01:15:17,810 --> 01:15:16,020
brain said words

1846
01:15:20,990 --> 01:15:17,820
you know it's like you just had to

1847
01:15:23,270 --> 01:15:21,000
remember it once and then it got it so

1848
01:15:26,990 --> 01:15:23,280
that's that's how the brain actually

1849
01:15:29,870 --> 01:15:27,000
works and um I've had several people

1850
01:15:32,450 --> 01:15:29,880
tell me that this has helped them as I

1851
01:15:34,970 --> 01:15:32,460
did and so it's

1852
01:15:37,310 --> 01:15:34,980
um it's amazing so two and a half weeks

1853
01:15:38,689 --> 01:15:37,320
after I got to the rehab hospital

1854
01:15:40,250 --> 01:15:38,699
there was no eight to ten weeks there

1855
01:15:42,110 --> 01:15:40,260
was no one to two years

1856
01:15:43,550 --> 01:15:42,120
it was only three months later in

1857
01:15:45,590 --> 01:15:43,560
September that I was in Irvine

1858
01:15:47,510 --> 01:15:45,600
California through there myself

1859
01:15:49,430 --> 01:15:47,520
walking through the hotel and I did my

1860
01:15:52,729 --> 01:15:49,440
talk I just had to have a lot of water

1861
01:15:55,189 --> 01:15:52,739
available that's all amazing yeah I mean

1862
01:15:57,950 --> 01:15:55,199
it's it's but see again it's it's

1863
01:16:00,530 --> 01:15:57,960
something we all can do it's not just me

1864
01:16:03,470 --> 01:16:00,540
it's not Mark the Antonio this is humans

1865
01:16:05,630 --> 01:16:03,480
we can all do this our brain can do it

1866
01:16:09,590 --> 01:16:05,640
wow under certain circumstances right

1867
01:16:12,530 --> 01:16:09,600
yeah yeah well I think uh I think this

1868
01:16:15,290 --> 01:16:12,540
has been a great evening that is a

1869
01:16:19,810 --> 01:16:15,300
fantastic story and uh thank you so much

1870
01:16:23,090 --> 01:16:19,820
for sharing that with all of us yes

1871
01:16:25,490 --> 01:16:23,100
you're still here what do I have to turn

1872
01:16:27,649 --> 01:16:25,500
this way right yeah yeah I'm really

1873
01:16:31,070 --> 01:16:27,659
happy we're still here yeah

1874
01:16:33,169 --> 01:16:31,080
yeah thank you no I I am too I I feel

1875
01:16:36,709 --> 01:16:33,179
like the new lease on life as they say

1876
01:16:39,350 --> 01:16:36,719
and uh you know modern medicine is quite

1877
01:16:41,450 --> 01:16:39,360
something and you know what I bet you

1878
01:16:43,550 --> 01:16:41,460
you might be like this too

1879
01:16:44,209 --> 01:16:43,560
um maybe not I'm not sure

1880
01:16:45,890 --> 01:16:44,219
um

1881
01:16:48,590 --> 01:16:45,900
for me they wouldn't let me have any

1882
01:16:50,810 --> 01:16:48,600
water and or any ice chips not even an

1883
01:16:52,490 --> 01:16:50,820
ice chips I wanted an ice cream I wanted

1884
01:16:53,689 --> 01:16:52,500
just an ice chip

1885
01:16:55,550 --> 01:16:53,699
and they wouldn't let me have it because

1886
01:16:58,090 --> 01:16:55,560
of a choking hazard because a trach and

1887
01:17:00,770 --> 01:16:58,100
oh yeah yeah

1888
01:17:04,430 --> 01:17:00,780
so when I got my first ice chip it was

1889
01:17:06,530 --> 01:17:04,440
like heaven sure a little tiny sponge on

1890
01:17:09,250 --> 01:17:06,540
a plastic stick the water's tasted like

1891
01:17:13,189 --> 01:17:09,260
a plastic but it was okay

1892
01:17:16,910 --> 01:17:13,199
water yeah and when I had my first glass

1893
01:17:19,990 --> 01:17:16,920
of ice water I savored a silly glass of

1894
01:17:22,189 --> 01:17:20,000
ice water I looked at the ice cubes

1895
01:17:23,990 --> 01:17:22,199
wow and then shake it people look at me

1896
01:17:25,610 --> 01:17:24,000
like that guy's on something I want what

1897
01:17:28,370 --> 01:17:25,620
he's got you know

1898
01:17:30,290 --> 01:17:28,380
I want what he's on yeah yeah right but

1899
01:17:33,910 --> 01:17:30,300
it wasn't that way at all was it it's

1900
01:17:36,470 --> 01:17:33,920
just a matter of the fact that we just

1901
01:17:37,550 --> 01:17:36,480
learned to appreciate some things better

1902
01:17:39,169 --> 01:17:37,560
than others because they were always

1903
01:17:40,250 --> 01:17:39,179
there we took them for granted yeah

1904
01:17:45,530 --> 01:17:40,260
that's right

1905
01:17:46,970 --> 01:17:45,540
this experience you learn not to take I

1906
01:17:49,070 --> 01:17:46,980
mean I feel

1907
01:17:52,010 --> 01:17:49,080
there's some part of every day so far

1908
01:17:54,229 --> 01:17:52,020
that I've felt really grateful because I

1909
01:17:55,550 --> 01:17:54,239
know that I could so easily not be here

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01:17:57,950 --> 01:17:55,560
so

1911
01:18:00,649 --> 01:17:57,960
yeah and I have way too much to do

1912
01:18:03,590 --> 01:18:00,659
not too much to do Dirk in the chat says

1913
01:18:05,390 --> 01:18:03,600
glad you're both here thank you Dirk I I

1914
01:18:08,590 --> 01:18:05,400
certainly uh agree with you I'm glad

1915
01:18:11,270 --> 01:18:08,600
that Martin's here with us

1916
01:18:12,350 --> 01:18:11,280
the man all right Mark well you take

1917
01:18:13,729 --> 01:18:12,360
care

1918
01:18:15,709 --> 01:18:13,739
all right well it's great to see you

1919
01:18:18,830 --> 01:18:15,719
thanks for uh doing this show it was

1920
01:18:20,149 --> 01:18:18,840
really cool it was fun I'm glad that I

1921
01:18:22,130 --> 01:18:20,159
think it was you that brought it up why

1922
01:18:23,810 --> 01:18:22,140
don't we do a show about this it might

1923
01:18:25,550 --> 01:18:23,820
have been I think it was I did it was a

1924
01:18:27,890 --> 01:18:25,560
couple months ago I think yeah that's

1925
01:18:31,370 --> 01:18:27,900
right right after all right everyone so

1926
01:18:33,950 --> 01:18:31,380
thank you so much for uh watching and uh

1927
01:18:36,290 --> 01:18:33,960
and I'll be back with another uh

1928
01:18:38,810 --> 01:18:36,300
everything else show when I think of a

1929
01:18:40,610 --> 01:18:38,820
topic I want to talk about and

1930
01:18:42,310 --> 01:18:40,620
uh Mark you're going right into your

1931
01:18:44,990 --> 01:18:42,320
live stream why don't you put that

1932
01:18:47,209 --> 01:18:45,000
website uh Channel out there the YouTube

1933
01:18:50,630 --> 01:18:47,219
channel out there so people can yeah I

1934
01:18:52,610 --> 01:18:50,640
wish I could but it's just not um I I

1935
01:18:55,070 --> 01:18:52,620
I'd have to log in and if I log in and

1936
01:18:58,610 --> 01:18:55,080
talk yeah and we're gone yeah yeah all

1937
01:19:01,610 --> 01:18:58,620
right uh I can I can actually just uh I

1938
01:19:04,070 --> 01:19:01,620
show real quick you know

1939
01:19:04,910 --> 01:19:04,080
um if you rather I mean I'll just show

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01:19:06,530 --> 01:19:04,920
um

1941
01:19:08,030 --> 01:19:06,540
give me a second here you do a

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01:19:10,430 --> 01:19:08,040
screenshot

1943
01:19:12,410 --> 01:19:10,440
I might be able to do let's see is it

1944
01:19:14,270 --> 01:19:12,420
this one yeah there we go

1945
01:19:17,270 --> 01:19:14,280
all right hold on so right now I have

1946
01:19:18,770 --> 01:19:17,280
the telescope is open okay and if you

1947
01:19:20,270 --> 01:19:18,780
could bring that up yeah well this is

1948
01:19:22,010 --> 01:19:20,280
yeah this is our live view right now

1949
01:19:24,649 --> 01:19:22,020
that we're looking at this is a live

1950
01:19:27,530 --> 01:19:24,659
view live view yeah this is a planetary

1951
01:19:31,189 --> 01:19:27,540
nebula Helix nebula it's called

1952
01:19:33,350 --> 01:19:31,199
um it's uh this is really cool yeah this

1953
01:19:34,430 --> 01:19:33,360
is an exposure I just uh it's still

1954
01:19:37,790 --> 01:19:34,440
underway

1955
01:19:40,250 --> 01:19:37,800
uh so far it's been going for uh

1956
01:19:41,510 --> 01:19:40,260
basically 45 minutes the whole time we

1957
01:19:43,310 --> 01:19:41,520
were on I just figured I'd go to an

1958
01:19:45,910 --> 01:19:43,320
object and check it out the full Moon's

1959
01:19:48,770 --> 01:19:45,920
out so it's a little bit um

1960
01:19:51,229 --> 01:19:48,780
yeah yeah but as you can see we have

1961
01:19:52,310 --> 01:19:51,239
filters to help us with that we got all

1962
01:19:55,070 --> 01:19:52,320
kinds of satellites that are going

1963
01:19:56,990 --> 01:19:55,080
through lots of star links right but you

1964
01:19:58,250 --> 01:19:57,000
know what this is really cool this is uh

1965
01:20:00,350 --> 01:19:58,260
what we're doing but tonight we're going

1966
01:20:02,450 --> 01:20:00,360
to be looking at the moon uh because

1967
01:20:05,330 --> 01:20:02,460
it's going to occult or go in front of

1968
01:20:07,130 --> 01:20:05,340
the planet Mars and uh we're gonna have

1969
01:20:09,830 --> 01:20:07,140
some fun with that and that starts in

1970
01:20:11,930 --> 01:20:09,840
just uh 10 minutes oh here all right

1971
01:20:13,430 --> 01:20:11,940
Mark no problem I'm already up see I'm

1972
01:20:15,530 --> 01:20:13,440
up and running we're good thanks all

1973
01:20:17,510 --> 01:20:15,540
right all right you take care thanks so

1974
01:20:19,550 --> 01:20:17,520
much all right Martin thank you so much